My traitorous heart beats for you and even though you aren't looking I feel embarrassed to still be shedding tears over a distant memory. Too far from me to grasp but close enough to imagine in details.
Two dimples digging into the sides of your mouth, an emerging mustache barely noticeable.
Brown eyes liquid with anxiety, your voice going soft when you tell me a pretty lie.
"I love you."

you open the wounds I’ve sewn together
I barely realize until I find myself bleeding
drip drip drip
you clean it up and we’re back to like it never happened.

You tore me apart
brick by brick
I came to realize that
you built a solid wall between us.

your first taste
makes the aftertaste
worth it

her dreams become
a part of her.
she drowned in them
and died in reality.

I thought your love
would save
me
but it
sank
me
further
down instead.

you can't make the stone flatter
just to walk on it better