i want to dangle my toes
off the edge of life
just to see
what lies below

i want to take it
just far enough
to see what is beyond breathing
and return with knowledge
no one else has obtained

i want the stars to tell me secrets
so i can walk upon this planet
with little pieces of the universe
tucked away in my mind

i want to know what no one else knows
and to be prepared
to jump head first
into what comes after us

s.s

i can't seem to differentiate
reality
from the memories
i keep playing in my head

so forgive me
for still being in love with you

i can't seem to tell the difference
between what you were
and what you have become

s.s

the walls were talking
vibrating back
everything i had pushed away
vicious sound waves
forcing their way in
to rattle my eardrums

now bloods dripping from my knuckles
and drying on the bricks
and i'm not sure what happened
but the pounding sensation
of blood rushing to the wound
fills my ears
drowning out everything else

s.s

i still see you in my sleep
maybe that's why i refuse
to close my eyes

s.s

i can not decide
whether to say i miss you
or try something new
and let my cold shoulder
freeze you over

s.s

i write when i'm overflowing with emotion

and can no longer contain it

so it is honestly incredible how much you've hurt me

because right now i could fill the ocean with everything i'm feeling

yet i can't even pick up my pen

s.s

she was beautiful
but if you looked close enough
you could see
she was broken

and the light in her eyes
was far gone below the surface

simply mimicking dead stars