i want to sleep but not wake up
because it's seems whenever i find sleep
i also find you

because when i first wake up
some part of me half expects you to be there
so when i roll over i can pull you in
and it will feel like home

but then it hits me
that when i roll over
i will only be greeted by an empty bed
and the only things i can pull in are my knees to my chest
and i will be home but it will feel foreign

so i want to sleep
sleep but please not wake up

s.s

all i can say
is that we tried
but even the strongest hurricanes
can dissipate among the ocean
before they ever taste the ground

s.s

i wish to carry such strength
that even gravity
will be utterly amazed
at how well
i keep all of my broken pieces
together

s.s

they were caught somewhere in the middle
between strangers and lovers
like where the waves hit the shore

not quite the sea
but not yet land

s.s

i kept them
as tokens of our innocence
of a love that once was

they stand for a time before
when we were together
and that's all that mattered

a time when we wanted to make each other happy
just kids struck blind by first love
trying to hold on to the high before it faded away

a time when i thought the world was good
and i had finally found something that felt right
i had found someone i didn't want to lose

now i can't seem to throw them away
because they remind me of you
and you may not be here now
but they prove you once were
so i kept them

s.s

there once was a time
when love was the greatest mystery known to man
when husbands and wives
didn't **** their baby sitters and ruin their children's lives
when flowers were given as a token of flattery and not an excuse for an apology

there once was a time
when you and i, partook in this mystery
where our hands were intertwined
and our hearts fluttered at the same time

but that was a long time ago
and i know
all the secrets.

you can delete their contact
block their number
and erase all of their texts

you can burn the pictures
shred the letters
and donate every gift

you can purge yourself of all tangible evidence
that they ever entered your life

but you will never be able to get rid of the way they made you feel

you will never be able to forget their laugh
or the look in their eyes when they told you they loved you

you will never be able to erase the way their touch felt to your skin
or the way it made you feel something you couldn't put into words

you will never be able to delete everything they said from your brain
and it will ring in the air when no one is around

and you will most definitely never be able to obliterate the way they broke your heart
and it will always burn and take your breath away when you hear their name

s.s