fat
annoying
ugly
A seed planted at a young age
Growing deep In my subconscious mind

Comments are made
Tears are shed
The critic is brought closer to the surface of consciousness
The seed planted oh so long ago sprouts and begins to blossom

Fat
Annoying
Ugly
I watch my plant grow
Helpless and full of desperation

What started as a question
Has now become a reality filled with judgements and critics
Presumptions feed on my thoughts like wildfire
Now an all consuming conflagration
Leaving me
Obsessed
Empty
Starving

FAT
ANNOYING
UGLY

My plant is now a dense forest
My fire burns brighter than ever before
FAT
ANNOYING
UGLY
WORTHLESS
HOPELESS

­lost.

I am trapped
Lost in a forest fire
Created by my worst critic
**ME.

I Keep Hearing Whispers

I Keep hearing whispers
  Voices inside my head
Telling me to forget you
And to forget those words I said

I promised you forever
And we even took that vow
We would live our lives together
No other's would be allowed

I meant those words I said back then
To have and to hold every night
But those whispers that I hear inside
They tell me to give up this fight

The whispers just get stronger
As you are no longer by my side
I cannot block the whispers
If your not willing to even try

I keep hearing whispers

Carl Joseph Roberts

I am sorry for being me
I am sorry for being a ****
I am sorry for being obsessed about you
I am sorry for being in love
I am sorry for being stupid
I am sorry for being a pain
I am sorry for being suicidal
I am sorry for being everything everyone dislikes
I apologize for everything that I have done.
I don't understand anything.
I am sorry.
I hope you can forgive me...