Why bother trying so hard?
It's not doing anything....
It's not like anyone pays enough attention to know the difference....

It's too late.
I've cracked....

There is one question that I ponder every second of every day...
*What is happiness, and how do I attain it?

"Are you okay?" you ask.

Am I okay?

I'm in so much pain I'm going crazy...seeing things that I don't think are real...crying myself to sleep every night...

"I'm fine!" I say, smiling.

Oh, if only you knew how untrue that is...

I want to cry
but I have no shoulder to cry on...

I want a hug
But I have no one to hug me...

I want some help
But I have no person to rely on...

Worst of all, I have one person to do all these things with,
*but I can't overwhelm them or I'll lose them

I don't know what to do...


It's pain or suffering
No evil lesser than the other

Am I really that mean?
To deserve this torture?

Is this karma
And I'm that evil?

Or am I just unlucky
And uncared about?


What have I done...?

Why do you have to be so pretty?
Why do you have to be so kind?
Why do you have to be so selfless?
Most importantly,
*Why do you have to be with someone else?