and you grip me tight
urgency exchanged among us
to breathe in the words I exhale
yours lips on mine
your hands tracing my skin
undo me with your breath on my neck

a permanent frost
has become me
and no matter what i do
i have become
infinitely
eternally
cold

Every hour
Every movement
Every step I take

This direction of life

It controls me
Taints my mind

I'm too confused
Too focused on then
Not ever now

About a time untold
What is yet to come

Too worried
About an uncertainty

It passes me
But I don't look

Too focused
I've become blind to life

No words
Just pain
Width drawl
My body aches
Suffocating
Tearing apart
Each ache magnifies
A new one is born
Each different
Never enough
My eyes strain for you
Burn at the sight of you
I am your slave

Words you promised never to speak
Drip from your toxic lips
Venom to freeze my veins
An ice queen I've become
Cold like your heart

words
my thoughts
phrases
my thoughts
constantly
my thoughts
always
my thoughts
never stop
my thoughts
they can't stop
my thoughts
i'm surrounded
my thoughts
i'm caged by them
my thoughts
just let me forget
my thoughts
and the ache that comes
my thoughts
make my chest swell
my thoughts
make my body heave
my thoughts
are scribbled across my vision
my thoughts
cease to calm
my thoughts
my thoughts
my thoughts
are all wrapped up around you
and they won't stop

ask me to and i shall stay
to trace the constellations of your skin
freckles and stardust

and when your grip tightened around my waist
the urgency of your mouth to capture my taste
from that moment i knew i was done
completely and totally
unfathomably yours

words gave me a comfort
no embrace ever could

So much resentment
Why had they not listened?
Some too focused on greed
Some mere victims  of life
Some lost in the abyss

So much resentment
Say they deserve it more
This mortal youth
Armed with reasons why
Because youth is wasted
On the young
Because we are too selfish
To deserve what we have

So much resentment
They want what they have lost
But nature will not allow it
No matter how many injections
No matter how much they pay

So much resentment
They've come up with a plan
Enslave us with petty excuses
On how life should be
Our vitality wasted

They drain our youth
They will continue to do so

Because if they can't have it
No one can

i am not the sun
nor your moon
or stars to illuminate the sky

watch you walk away
time moving to a halt
but no matter what it's
too fast for me to catch up
to find a way to make this work

the words you promised never to utter
froze the blood on my veins
watched them drip from your lips

a crashing end to a beautiful symphony
have no idea all that it did to me
another lie

you knew
you didn't care

And then I wonder
What am I waiting for?

Everywhere
You are everywhere
All around me

In my thoughts
In my dreams
Your name on my tongue

My tongue against yours
Whisper your deepest desire
Against my spine

You surround me
I surround you
We are one

Flushed skin pressed tight
We do not breathe oxygen
We breathe promises
We breathe truths

Take me with every inhale

i always know
always been sure
about everything in the world
and then you came along
and the thoughts began to soar
truths unveiled
drunken words released
to make my mind swim
in infinite possibilites
emotions, i thought
were under my control
but emotion is far greater than that
changing faster than any tide of any ocean
and now i am unsure of everything
of how my heart says no when i think about you
and how it races when i see your eyes
confusion has become me
i don't know what i want
i want you
but i don't
but i do
but i don't
here is my dilemma

and it smells like you
i can't get rid of it
'cause i remember it
all too well

and you're indecisive and your worried
but the second you see him
the second he looks at you
the butterflies erupt
and you know everything is worth it

i dont fancy being alone