i feel completely exhausted i lost the ability to relax my jaw is always clenched my muscles are always tense my mind is always infested nightmares are haunting my dreams flashbacks of repressed memories are darkening my waking life i jump at the drop of a hat the slightest sudden unexpected sound makes me flinch anxiety is plaguing my existance
You have every right to desire it You are selfish for accepting it Let them take care of you They should not be bothered It's okay to be vulnerable Dependence is for the weak Life did not go easy on you Stop fussing over everything You are doing the best you can You are nothing but a failure Be kind to yourself S-u-c-k it up loser
i love her i love her so much she's everything i don’t understand it the feelings that overcome my body the thoughts that occupy my mind nothing i have ever experienced wholeheartedly foreign whitman said “we feel the long pulsation, ebb and flow of endless motion” i never understood it until she gave it meaning she entered my life without permission and intertwined with my story in an instant nothing else matters she’s the only thing i can see all can fall into ruin i don't care she's my only pinch of bliss in this incessant cyclone of turbulence she transforms the mundane into compelling hopelessness into safety darkness into light all i want is her to be next to me to hold my hand and love me the desire to share everything with her makes me want to live makes me not want to die she's the love of my life all i ever wanted and dreamt of i adore every inch of her body and soul i refuse to be without her we shall never be apart i will love her until my dying day
i hate my life i hate myself i’m not good enough i’m not strong enough i don’t see a point in living i don’t see a future for myself i’m a waste of space i’m just a breathing vegetable i don’t want to do that anymore i don’t want help i can’t get better i’ve seen too much i’ve felt too much i can’t take it anymore i can’t keep pretending i’m not ok i’m so not ok i’m weak and tired i was a mistake i was never meant to be here i refuse to stay and watch my life get worse i will never be happy i want to end it
as we die we inhale our last breath and exhale a shout into oblivion shouting all that was not said and all that could have happened while you are screaming though you question why you never said this while you were alive where people could take in what you had to say and possibly change but then again how could you scream to a world with headphones in and music turned all the way up to drown out all other sounds ?