life is unpredictable
things don’t always go your way
you ask for a coffee with one sugar
but the barista puts in two
drinking the too sweet liquid burns
you drink it anyways

You craved my curves
while I craved your mind
that's why you were too busy ******* me to notice
that I was trying to undress your mind

I was always told
"actions speak louder than words"
and maybe that's why I'm always staring at your hands when you speak
instead of listening to what you have to say
and maybe that's why you keep spitting out things
like how gorgeous I am
instead of holding my hand or kissing my cheek
and I've come to the conclusion that
actions don't speak louder than words
because they're both equally meaningless
and that maybe you don't love me
and maybe that's okay

words hurt like teeth clenched around an open wound
unbearable agony
scarred forever like the cigarette burn you made yourself
on accident
small price to pay for a forever stay

it took 4 full moons
2 bottles of something stronger than you ever were
and a salty waterfall from my eyes that **** near drowned me
to finally realize
you were not
and never planned to be
someone who loved me

You're searching for him in every empty coffin
The flowers wilted years ago
but you can't bring yourself to throw away that last bit of him
the scent faded as fast as he slammed the door in your face
yet you still smell the roses he use to pick for you at the park behind your house
you can't bring yourself back to the person you were 6 months ago no matter how hard you try and every starry night you can't bring yourself to look outside because he's everywhere

there is no love
except between the sheets

at least that’s what you said
right before you left

as you crawled out from the messy bed

fully naked, fully honest 

you left faster than you came

I'd break my neck just to watch yours fall back with laughter
I'd miss every sunset just to see the glow in your eyes every evening
I'd rip my own heart out and
give it to you even if it mean't that I would never get it back
I'd give you everything I have just to watch you throw it back in my face
and I will love you even if you never love me

a seven o’clock alarm, my wake up call to reality
gentle golden sunlight gleams through my window
leaving a beautiful glow that coated everything except me
i lay still as the trees dance to melodies sang by birds and sway to the whisper of the wind
for a brief moment i feel calm
i have no worries as i watch the morning bloom into the day
my alarm goes off as i awake to the sad realization that everything beautiful in my life is nothing but a dream

I will love you in waves

somedays I will be the calm tide that longs for you 

other days I will be a massive storm, drowning everything

I will love you in waves

some days I will be small, gentle, and comforting

other days I will be vicious and too much to handle

but I will love you in waves

I will always love you in waves

You told me you adored flowers
so I grew you a garden

and planted myself in the soil

with hopes that one day

you would adore me

but 
you didn’t even notice me

I guess that’s because

you were too busy picking daisies
to notice that I was a rose

red light stops in the dim lit night
you notice only after its too late just like everything else
death teases u with a wink while blowing a kiss goodbye

the idea of an eclipse i see once

if i’m lucky enough to be there at the right time

the image of a perfect sunset

never seen by the naked eye

engraves my mind

the silhouette of you

a rare masterpiece

hung in the back of my mind

Where did you put it all?
the love.
did it evaporate into thin air
to be breathed in by another?
or
did it slip through your fingers and you didn't bother to pick it up?

You're in love with the way
he drowns you in false promises without realizing how many other girls are struggling to breathe because of him

your chest, my only pillow
an uneven beat pounds
I memorize every second
unsure if it will be the last
the last time I feel loved
unsure if I even feel loved

Daffodils dance
above your head
the way your mother use to
before she placed them there