i want to live without coating my joy in resin
worried about what will tarnish it.
how do i grow if my past is always there
encased in a love i never think i can feel again.

You hold me like you think i will leave
Like the constant contact we keep
Is the anchor holding you to me

The rocks can not stop
The waves from meeting the shore
And distance can not keep
My heart from beating for yours

My heart breaks with disuse
and every night I cry myself dry
hoping that I can be another one
of those things you left behind
and returned to love again

My heart breaks with disuse  
and I wonder if you can find it in you
to love me again
because god knows
I can't find it in me to stop loving you

And i want to drown in something other than you
I want to meet god on her throne and not wish
I was anywhere else with you.

And i want to be someone else
Who does not dream of your love
And wake up crying with the bed cold.

and i would give anything
to spend a night in your arms
instead of a nightmare