I stand and no one is still with me
All moving ahead- bumping into me

I speak and no one listens
All moving in and out the other ear

No one retains me

They let me bleed from their palms

Never do they grasp me
Never do they hold me close
Never do they enjoy me

I wish I could slip into a comatose

Rise when I am stronger

When others words don't wind me
Others looks don't slice me

When I find the balance
Between empathy for me and apathy for others

Because I often ignore my needs for all others wants
And I'm not used to being labeled selfish for taking care of me

Yet no one would dare do the care or do the same for me

I can’t keep living for my next escape

But people seem rather upset when I consider dying

Pitch-black skies and milky white splotches;

Firey red suns and silent waves on starlit rockets.

Don't walk this world happily

For you know the deepest truth.

When you slow dance in the darkness

You'll be drained of energy and youth.

You'll pirouette around the stars

leaving tears like prisms in your wake.

Pretty, and ain't it funny

How the rainbow is YOUR mistake?

I want to tell you
What’s in my head
This entire other world
The constant droning of voices
The screaming and thrashing within

But if I did
If I did...

You’d never look at me the same
I’d be broken to you
Damaged

I know that I am...
But I just...
I can’t let you see me like that

I don't know what to do to feel better
I do what I want - that's not good for me
I do what I need to - most of it saddens me
I'm just chilling but that seems unfavorable
It's never been the world that makes me care
But it's one person's malice existence that fuels me with anger towards any opposition I face from them
They're relaxed but my anxiety makes me wonder if it will stay this way