Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
 May 2016 Shield Maiden
Sjr1000
I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know what I'm feeling
I don't know where I'm going
I don't know who I'm being
I'm overwhelmed,
frustrated,
I can't cope

These are the slogans
I repeat to myself
Over and over again

Oh yeah

I'm a failure too
I've lived this life
What did I do?
What do I have to
show for it?

These facts about myself
are the one thing
I'm very positive about.

I repeat these slogans
day in and day out
always wondering
what I'm so
depressed about

I bury my head in these sands

Suffocating
Smothering
choking on anxiety
in my own
advertising slogans
on my private airwaves

To complicate
matters
worse
just because we think something
doesn't make it true
that goes for
self worth too.

But

Mindfulness
stands
watching the passing cars
from a freeway overpass
like our racing thoughts
not holding on
not making them go away,
in peace
simply
letting them
be.
States of mind are transitory, come and go.
 May 2016 Shield Maiden
Katie Ann
I just want someone to tell me
It's okay to be myself
When I don't think it is.
 May 2016 Shield Maiden
Katie Ann
I constantly crave the worst things for me
And I always give in
Its too tempting to taste something I used to know
Because lately
I feel like I don't know anything
I'm so lost
I constantly crave to feel at home.
 May 2016 Shield Maiden
Katie Ann
I loved an entirely different version of who you are
Yet in the end
The difference didn't matter
I already loved
the first, second, and hundredth version
Every version
Had me
I loved
Every version
How could I accept all of you when you couldn't accept any of me?
 May 2016 Shield Maiden
Katie Ann
I was right in thinking
you needed to be loved
I was wrong in thinking
mine was enough
 May 2016 Shield Maiden
Kimiko
I will keep silent
even after hearing bad rumors
so no one could get hurt
nobody but me

I will keep silent
in the midst of your anger
so i could hear you
more than i hear myself

I will keep silent
in facing my own fears
so no amount of worry
will touch your happy cheers

I will keep silent
even in the banks of my death
so i can only feel your love
more than the pain of regret

just remember...
whenever i keep silent

I'm simply just saying...


I LOVE YOU
Voices are given to us without a price. Some of us even have voices without words. It is our choice to use it or not, for the good or for the better of those we treasure the most. But most importantly, let us not forget that Words mean nothing without action.
A part of them remains in me still.
Which is I guess why it's true that I'll always be her friend,
Because we traded a part of us we can never give back.
When I'm friends with someone I mean it,
And so her indent will always remain.
 May 2016 Shield Maiden
-df
I want to walk
with you.

I want our footprints
along the ocean shore.

I want you to
look at me the way I look at you.

Except that just like those footprints,
your love for me has disappeared.

(-DF-04/304/16-)
I'm feeling a bit melancholy. Who am I kidding? I'm feeling REALLY melancholy.
I do love you,
                         but you not me,
                         this pain is quite distressing.

Emotions rush,
                           my face will blush,
                           yet your eye's gaze is chilling.

I have no writ,
                           my heart's in fit,
                           I hope my soul's not dying.
April 17, 2015
Next page