Have you ever woken up from a dream
And noticed you couldn’t move?
You can bat your pretty lashes
And slightly move your toes
But somehow your body has turned to stone

With my body asleep and mind awake
I don’t know the difference between my dream and my present state
Why can I feel the tears streaming from my fluttery eyes
But not your touch?

I am alone here in this ****** body
With nothing but the taste of salt
Where is my lover
Am I still dreaming or is this real life

There’s this piece of paper I own
That I fold and fold until it’s barely there
and I bury it deep within me.
This paper is my enemy
A list filled with questions but no answers,
that you will not answer.

So I fold and fold until it practically disintegrates
As if I swallowed it and the stomach acid made it disappear
But don’t be fooled for it is there
Because I don’t consume it,
it consumes me.
You will not see and you will not know
That this list has surfaced into my mind.
And once it rises to my brain, it’s no longer my enemy
It’s my love
So I fold and fold my 10 dollar bill
And sniff my list of why I hate you
Because I just can’t get enough.

Cry to me
Lie to me
Confess to me
Repress to me
Tell me everything you want to be,
And what to not

Just keep crying to me please
I will sooth you
Tell me the lies please
I will keep them close
Confess your love for me
For I will take it all
Repress your wrongs
So I can make it right

Show me the pain
Don’t worry I won’t gain
Anything you’re saying
Because you are me

I woke up stuffy
In the nose and the mind
Where's the water?
What is the time?
Wish I could turn the world off
And sleep the day away
I turn over and look to my right
and there was my baby
Sound asleep with clouds in his mind
And growls in his voice
Arm gently placed on my thigh
pulling me closer to his body
Adjusting to my movement
My heart starts to feel whole again

In this exact moment I felt love again
I hoped he'd feel my glance on his features
Awaken, and think the same

been a while
I know I've missed you
What shall we do?

Sip walk talk
Smoke laugh drink
Drink stand ***
Sit shot smoke
Chop cut line
Snort cough sniff
Sip sip sip
Smoke cough sip
Snort smoke cough
Clear throat dry
Drink line line
Line smoke shot
Shot line Bathroom
Water line shot
Puke water crying
Where is my mind

I just wrote a poem
And it erased
All of my thoughts and words
Disappeared from my eyes

They did not disappear from my mind