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 Dec 2013 Shanay Love
Nothing
And you made me
Hate the sun
Because people are trained to fear the unknown
Unless you open your arms to it
But you blocked my view.
popped into my head out of nowhere
I wouldn't dare to let you look into my eyes
For the secrets I hide and the lies I trust
Are fragile in my current state of mind

I wouldn't dare to let you sneak a peak at my soul
For it is broken and no longer whole
As I scramble to preserve all that is left of me

I wouldn't dare to let you have a hold on me
For I could never truly stay
The moment you get too close I back away and start to leave

I wouldn't dare to let you know how I truly feel
For my emotions would be my undoing
And my carefully woven threads are already loose

I wouldn't dare to let you step so close to me
For I wouldn't be able to stop myself
From keeping you close to me and never letting go

I wouldn't dare to let you into my heart
For I know that if I even begin to, I wouldn't stop
and I would let myself love you
So completely
So deeply
*For all time
And we're just us
That was a moment of peace
We were infinite
And no one could ruin it

In that moment
When you didn't care for my age
Or the awkward way I dress
When you looked at me
Like I was the most amazing thing you've ever seen

In that moment
When I was your whole world
And you were my universe
But it had to end

Like all things eventually do
But I'll always remember
Those 90 seconds
When I truly had you
The way your fingertips dance
Over my dry skin
And the way your lips demand
For more than a chaste kiss
It was how your eyes did nothing
To search for my soul
And how you whispered sweet nothings
Through a device so cold
But that warmth you give me
When your arm is wrapped around my body
And the way your laugh and smile
soothe my aching heart
and lift the sadness for awhile
The comfort and safety
You often provide
And my inability to lie
Even through that cold device
I hold you up so high
I just wish you could do the same
But I do not love
The way you say my name
The way you close your eyes
The way you pull away from me
No one is perfect
That I concede
But I often question,
"Why would you waste you time
with a girl like me?"
Answers were not your forte
You were the opposite of romantic cliches
I could pour my heart to you
And still you would ignore
Everything but your need
to constantly explore
The parts of me you could see
And not the ones I would let you reach
But it is enough for you
And that I would construe
And I will wait
And keep waiting
Though I know it could never be
For why would you waste your time
with a girl like me

(m.e.)
 Dec 2013 Shanay Love
Nothing
have you ever noticed
that when people stare out the window on a bus or train or car or plane
that their eyes follow every single detail at a whiplash inducing speed
but their head stays put?
it's like they're mesmerized by something, something no one else can see
and they have to stare, unblinkingly
so it doesn't disappear.
their eyes flit back and forth like someones head, while watching a tennis match.
they rarely blink
until they tear their eyes away,
close
sleepy, unfocused suddenly
and stare straight ahead,
like nothing happened.
**recovery
I heard a cry in the night,
A thousand miles it came,
Sharp as a flash of light,
My name, my name!

It was your voice I heard,
You waked and loved me so—
I send you back this word,
I know, I know!
 Dec 2013 Shanay Love
Jay
She came in
out of the green
Because any other entrance
would be far too common and simple.
She came in at the perfect moment,
when I believed the world was dark,
to shine a little light for me
and keep a beacon on that distant horizon.
Keep it shining,
Guide me to you,
And someday we'll meet face to face,
And share that cup of tea,
where we can see the other's eyes
and know that it
simply has to be-
Fate.
 Dec 2013 Shanay Love
Jay
I hope you know
that I always manage to burn the popcorn
And that I always have trouble falling asleep because
I'm thinking of how things could be
I hope you know that sometimes I have
a patch of hair that can't be tamed
I hope you know that I sometimes get frustrated
when I'm trying to work on something
and I keep getting interrupted
I hope you know that I don't really drink coffee
but prefer Coca and Tea
I hope you know that I don't eat cereal
and most days I don't eat breakfast at all
I hope you know I can take things to heart
and tend to wear it on my sleeve
I hope you know I'm not all that lean
I hope you know that I sometimes clam up
for no reason at all
I hope you know that despite all of these flaws
I'm still trying my best to be a good person
and I'm still just not good enough
Walking.
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