Shan de Vries

Shan de Vries Jan 2015

I can't blame you for leaving

But I do

#stay #sixwordpoem

Shan de Vries Apr 2014

I was thinking about you
In my own language, not in yours
I used no beautiful sentences
And no sweet metaphores
I was just thinking about you
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#i #thinking #you #was #about

Shan de Vries Sep 2013

Maybe

Maybe I'm here to be alone
Even though you told me you loved me
And that you wanted to be with me
But what if something inside of me
Doesn't want to be with you
Or with anyone
Maybe I like to be alone

Maybe I'm here to be broken
Even though the touch of your hands
Healed my heart within seconds
But what if I don't want that
That love thing that everybody wants
Or a fully recovered heart
Maybe I like to be broken

Maybe I'm here to die
Even though I lived every second
When you held me in your arms
But what if I don't need you
Your arms around my waist
Or your hand in mine
Maybe I like to be dead

Shan de Vries Sep 2013

A Friend

you are a beautiful creature
the stars light up in your eyes
and i can tell that you left so much behind
are you afraid of the dark
or are you afraid of the light
because sometimes the day is much more dangerous than the night

but please, keep saying the words you say
keep on taking my breath away

i can see it in your eyes
they are filled with fireflies
but maybe
if i look a little bit closer
i can see your pain
i will never ask you why
you are holding it inside
but maybe
if you know that i am here
you'll think again
and then you'll know you've got a friend

Shan de Vries Sep 2013

Just another day

Just another day
Another day with insecurities
Why should I believe
In all the same philosopies
I keep trying to be happy
I keep trying to be brave
But who the **** am I kidding
When there's no one here to save

Just another day
Another day with so much pain
I can feel all the dark blood
Slowly running through my veins
I keep trying to make it better
I keep trying not to cry
But who the **** am I kidding
When there is no reason why

Just another day
Another day full of tears
I guess I'm feeling alone
Because I really need you here
I keep trying to stand tall
I keep trying to be strong
But who the **** am I kidding
When I know you'll never come

Shan de Vries Sep 2013

Last poem

I decided to write one last poem
To explain it all
Sometimes it's better to let go
Because the timing's wrong
But I'm still on my knees
Trying to stop the bleeding
'Cause my head knows we are dead
But my heart just won't believe it
In the evening when the night falls
And nothing seems to matter
I put my hands together
And pray for things to get better
But these hands weren't made for that
They were made to protect you
And hold yours
But I guess that's how the story ends

Shan de Vries Sep 2013

Complications

I wanted to write it down
But I never really had a chance
And now that I finally can
It all doesn't make any sense
Forgive me for being honest
And all the things that I said
I never really intended
To take us a step back
But we had tough situations
You used words as violation
We were both fully committed
Until it got complicated
I always thought we would make it
But it's better we didn't
We're better off without each other
Even though I really miss it