They tell me one day
I would know what it feels like
They tell me one day
I will finally get it right

They tell me one day
I would find my own happiness
They tell me one day
I will get out of this phase

But one day seems far away
As the seasons keep changing
But one day seems far away
Because I still feel very lonely

But one day seems far away
As my mind taunts and belittles me
But one day seems far away
As a reason for me to live

Hi its me again
Yes the one that hears your pain
Had a tough week?
Minds restless and could not sleep

Maybe music could help
Makes you reflect pieces of yourself
Don't wander into the void
Into the emptiness of a world destroyed

Calm your nerves down
Praying, crying, hoping it will turn around
Now slowly drift away
Into a dream and keep your demons at bay

I was worried for myself
The moment I had my eyes on you
I knew what I have felt
There was nothing much I can do
Because it was too late
My heart was smitten for you

The was a part of me inside
I knew that was going on
That someday you might
Prove that I was wrong

I wanted to believe in you
But the truth speaks
Secrets I never knew
Horrors I would never believed

I thought it was real
The bond that we made
This act made my mind ill
Thinking of your mistake

I hope you thought this through
Knowing it made me suffer
For having faith in you
Thinking you were better

But I have come to realise
The moment I left you behind
With all of your lies
Peace came into my mind

Chasing you is like chasing the stars
I am sure that I would never reach
Chasing you is like chasing a dream
You would be gone once my alarm rings
Chasing you is like chasing shadows
You are there but I could never hold

Hello
Might be the start of our conversation
Please pay close attention and listen
For now the version of you is different
Because your past self would be proud
Those sunny days were covered by clouds
With total uncertainty which cast doubts
Remember those times you got mad?
Or the time you cried when you were sad?
Only to take for granted for what you had
I hope you learn from your past mistakes
Which could affect the choices you make
Hopefully better choices for your own sake
Because the secret to true happiness
Is when you learn to love your own self.

Everything must come to an end
Though I never hoped it be this way
Slowly letting go of your hands
But my heart just wants to stay
Your eyes looking straight to mine
Burying your feelings deep inside
I heard you said the word goodbye
And I knew a part of me just died

Procrastination
Is some kind of action
Which needs no talent
Nor does it need passion
Procrastination
Time is always delayed
Meetings are always postponed
It gets nothing accomplished
Procrastination
The silent thief of time
Leaves no trace nor sign
In the end you'll fall behind

When our eyes intertwine
And our hands held tight
I thank god that you're mine

You don't know how simple it was
To have fallen for an angel like you
All it took was one of your touch
And you were in my mind on a loop
I kept thinking about you all day
I had doubts about you every nights
If the words I would choose to say
Would it make you leave my side?
Or those words would make you stay
By my side until the end of time?

You said we could do it all together
Or was it only I who remembered?
That night in the middle of October
When you told me that I mattered
But for how long will I be that person?
Before you choose to leave me behind
But as I expected the situation worsen
And soon you left these arms of mine
How I wished the time could turn back
Maybe I could fix what was broken
Or even stop it from the day we met
To stop the words from being spoken

Remember when you were a kid and all you wanted to was age up? You wished for it every year as you ascend and it never stopped.

You grew physically and mentally as the years pass you by. You started seeing the extraordinary parts of your life.

But everything great must come to an end. Sooner or later you will learn one of life's greatest lesson which is pain.

Pain that could cause by a heart break or the passing of a friend. Thinking it would stop if only your life would end.

And at that point you start to wonder
how did it get complicated? All these complications and test was never what you wanted.

Then you sat there alone thinking why would you grow old? To only face the harshness of life that weakens your soul.

I remembered your lovely eyes
Oh how those pair twinkle
Brighter than the stars at night
Falling for it seemed simple

Whisper me sweet nothings
Love as sweet as honey
Tonight I get rid of my sorrows
And I will regret it tomorrow

All those feelings I have caught
Just by our little conversations
Love was not what you sought
You just needed a companion

To heal all of your wounds
You don't really need me
Even if I gave you the moon
You would still choose to leave

Have you ever felt alone?
Even in a crowded room?
Even with your friends
On a Sunday afternoon?
Even with your family
At one of those gatherings?
Why is there a certain void inside
Only darkness with no shed of light
Is this what it means to be lonely?
Cause I felt it most parts of my life

How could I get through the nights?
Whenever I close my eyes
I'll be thinking of you the whole time

I remember how I felt that night
As I packed my things for home
Can't wait to have you in my sight
Can't wait to tell you over the phone
Never have I ever felt this excited
After all this time it was gonna be you
I thought with you is a new beginning
Another chapter unveiling slowly
But it turns like any other good book
The plot has its own unexpected twist
For in your heart there was another
All the time you had a secret lover
The promises we made just disappear
I remember how mad I was at myself
Falling in love for someone like you
You turned out to be a waste of time
But we both never said our goodbyes
We just drifted apart like strangers
Forgotten feelings for each other
Maybe it is the perfect ending
Me trying to wash away the feelings
Trying to forget all of those times
Where I thought to have a fresh start
But it turns out you were the one
Who tore my whole world apart

I have cared for the one's who would not care for me. I always wondered if it was all my fault. Though I was left alone with no reasons so I have decided the mistakes are my own. I could not think of reasons of why people should stay. Why should a fool like me deserved to be loved anyway? I am broken and there's no hope in fixing me. Let people just remember me as part of their history.  But I do hope even though they left, I have once made them happy. For their time was short but it made a difference to me. I hope you understand what you meant to me even though I meant nothing much to you.

A world where it does not matter
All you need is your pen and paper
Where words are crafted into beauty
Where you expose your own honesty
Writing out what you bottled up
Writing the contents of your heart
Hoping there's someone out there
That they are feeling the same way
To tell them that they are not alone
And let the poetry ease their pain

It never had been easy
To have patience in your heart