I think about you late at night when I cannot sleep.
I think about you every second of the day.
Leaving me to wonder how are you.

I'm buried inside of my thoughts.
I have a dark secret
hidden deep inside my thoughts.
Close, very close to telling it.
The urge to tell someone with trust.
Should I spill it?
I shouldn't,
then what would be the point of it being a secret?
A horrifying secret,
to keep a secret.
Locked inside,
to never be revealed to anyone
but if trusted.
Secrets are suppose to be discrete.
They're secrets,
that are to  stay secrets,
to stay very discrete.
Once told,
ruined the trust.
They will tell.
To tell is to never be forgiven,
trusted.
They have told your deepest,
darkest secret.
Never trust,
but forgive.

I loved you whole heartedly,
Until the day I found out what you have done to me.
You broke my heart.
You stompped on it, like it was NOTHING to you.
You only care about yourself.
You are a disgrace.
You have made me angry.
You never cared about my feelings.
I cannot ******* believe what you did to me.
You used me for my feelings to get what you wanted,
YOU KNEW* that I loved you so much I would do anything.
You took advantage of my feelings.
I still love you but I hate you for what you done to me.
I have nothing more to say to you.
You are just a stuck up *****, who didn't deserve my love or anything from me.  I have done everything to make you happy and that's how you repay me.
*******, I'm done with your *******.

As my hands gently glide across your body. From left to right, up and down
gently touching your body.
Our bodies gently press together.
As my lips gently kiss yours.
Slowly covering your body in kisses.

Forgiving of your sins.
Fills you with his fire of happiness
Warms you up with his fire.
Slammed by the holy spirit
Makes you want more of his fire.
So intense that you will cry of happiness.
Glad to feel God is around you.
His presents is lovely and peaceful.
We are sinners, but he loves everyone.
He forgives you of your sins when you ask for forgiveness.
He is listening to you when you pray.

I have probably with guys.
God knew what I go through when it comes to guys. He said to me " You aren't suppose to earn a guys heart, the guy has to earn your heart* and God is with you and will help you if in the need. *He will guide you in the right direction

You are my star,
the star that shines brightly in the night sky,
you are the star that will shine forever in my eyes,
You are my star to keep and admire.
*I wish upon a star you'll forever be mine

I might not have
the perfect smile.
I might not have
the perfect teeth.
I might not be the
skinniest person out there.
I might not be the
most beautiful human being.
I might not be the perfect person
and that's okay, because no one is
perfect.
We all have flaws.
Some are good at hiding them,
some are not.
The thing is,
you have to come to know that you are
special
unique
and beautiful
in your own ways.
I've learned that being negative
doesn't do anything
but make matters worse.
Being negative
doesn't really get you anywhere.
You become mopey
You don't ever feel good enough
about yourself or
about anything.
Change that problem,
I guarantee
that you will feel
so much better afterwards
but you will never achieve
if you keep it with you.
Let it go.
Just, let it go.
No matter how hard it is to forget.
Turn that negative attitude
into a positive attitude.
If I can do it,
you can do it.
I believe
that you will accomplish it
someday at sometime.
Whether you want to
or not,
just try.
Also think,
no one is making you feel that way
but yourself.
See the difference,
**feel the difference.

When is comes down to love.
Everyone tells you,
You don't know what love is
What is love?
Love, love is when you care unconditionally about a person.
Love is always there, never to dissipate.
Love is always in the air.
you can't take love away from a person
you can hurt that person
Think about it,  if you love a person so much.
what would you do if someone took it away from you?

So therefor, I am sad because I love a person I cannot have anymore.

May I just say.
It feels quite peaceful to be this delighted.
The way you make me feel.
It is so wonderful to be with you.
I feel more accepted for who I am,
Isn't that how someone would want to feel?
You make me feel accepted
for what's happened in my life,
the good and bad.
I'm quite thrilled to call you mine,
to call you my boyfriend.
I feel comfortable to be around you and with you,
there hasn't been a time where you have ever made me feel uncomfortable in any situation.
Can I just say,
It is ridiculous how jubilant you make me.
You always have me smiling from ear to ear.
Just looking at you, makes me
smile like crazy, it's kind of ridiculous.
I've never felt so,
satisfied in my life before.
When I'm with you I feel more,
Confident in myself, confident in us.
I feel energetic in all the stuff that we do together.
You make me feel pleased.
You make me feel so calm and relaxed around you.
I feel reliable in you and I.
I feel so interested in you and the way you do things.
You make me feel affectionate.
You make me feel so eager to the next time I see you.
I feel anxious with you.
You make me feel so hopeful in everything now.
You make me feel good about a lot of things.
You give me good feelings, they're really special feelings.
It's nice how you haven't ever made me feel,
Lifeless,
menaced,
and unhappy.
You're the best thing that has came into my life.
You managed to turn everything around,
when everything was all horrible.
My feelings for you grow each time we speak,
each time we see each other,
each time we kiss.
I think it's so cute and adorable when you kiss my cheek or my forehead.
I'd do the same to you but I don't want it to be weird if I were too.
I love everything about you,
your taste in music is amazing,
you are so sweet,
kind and caring,
I love how you will open doors and let me go first,
even though I think you deserve to go first at times,
I love how you don't mind to go see movies together
or to go out to get something to eat,
I love how you don't mind paying for things for me.
And one day, I will return the favor over to you.
I'll take you out to places,
pay for your things,
just like you have done for me,
and how you do for me.
I really like you.
I like you a lot, actually.
I hope you stay with me no matter how difficult things can get,
or how difficult things will get at times.
You make me so happy,
I hope I make you happy
like you make me.
I'd say you're quiet the **gentleman for me.

Your kisses are just as lovely as you are.
Your kisses give me butterflies like how you always give me butterflies.
Your kisses are as sweet as you are too me.
You kisses are like the taste of sugarplums on your lips.
Your kisses give the type of happiness you give me.
You could kiss me a billion times and nothing would ever change the way I feel about you.
I will treat you like a prince, as you are my prince.
I will try to make you happy, how you make me happy.
*Baby, I love your kisses like I love you.