Thoughts flow in
Freely on their own
Hijacking their home
I am without defense
Everything is gripped
I can’t break apart
Depression seeps through all cracks
Now that’s what it is
Not just lingering sadness
More like a
“What the **** did I do”
Hijacked.
Is this discussed?
It’s supposed to be sweet
Elation, joy, connection
Overtaken by this body
Turning its back on me
Temporarily
Without defense for now
I hope to come back around
For now I’ll stay
Crying without a sound

I wonder if you still think about it
I don’t
Only sometimes.
When the memory flashes
I’m taken with heat
One more time
You and me.
We are both so far gone
The chance doesn’t exist
Don’t get carried away
Wasn’t a good fit.
But your body
And our chemistry
And your mouth
And our passion
And your grip
And our ending.
The slow fade.
Maybe that’s why
It’s still there
Still today
Only sometimes.