There’s something about
The way the candles
reflect on your tan body —
The way the warmth
And the dance of the fire
Makes everything about you
So appetizing;
So appealing.
There’s something about
The orange of your skin
And the rosy scent of it
That allures me
In the most lustful
And loving way —
In the most shallow
And meaningful way.

love when you are ready —
not when you are lonely

Why are you sad?* I asked, giving him a kiss.
It’s because every time we part,
I always have this longing of
Wanting more time with you, he said.

I always want more of you.
It’s always never enough —
A day will never be enough,
He told me with solemness.

He looked up at me and made a promise:
I promise you I’ll be the man,
The man that will spend all eternities with you
And I won’t ever be tired of it.

I love you, that’s why.
I love you in all the curves and edges —
All the patches and etches
In my temporary body

For now, I’m becoming that man;
Slowly, but I will be.
I’m not saying that I will grab all the stars in the sky
Because then, all the glimmer in you will disappear.

All I promise is,
I will be the man that is right for you.
But for now, I’m only becoming
More than the man of your dreams.

I gave him a shy smile and thought,
You will be the man, I know,
You’ll be the man I’ll spend my entire life with.
*But for now, you’re still my rose bud boy.

I cry every silent night when no one can hear me
I cry inside these walls where no one can see me

There's this constant pain inside my chest
Silently lingering in your absence

It hurts —
My body aches for your embrace;
My mouth yearns for your kisses.
God, I really wish we didn't have to…
But you understand.
It’s for the best, right?

It hurts so much
Here in my heart:
Where you should be;
Where traces of you still linger
In the crevices of my brain
And in the chambers of my heart.

I’m sorry.
I know it’s hurting you, too.
I still love you;
And I know you still love me.
But maybe we weren’t supposed to be.
Not now, at least.

But someday,
When we’ll start right;
When we don’t have to hide what we are;
When we can show the whole ******* world
That they were wrong —
That we were, indeed, in love

I believe

That we’ll find our way

Back to each other.


No matter how long


Or how far.



I will wait with you.




I will wait.

I know we broke up
But we broke up for the right reasons
Sometimes I wish we didn't
But I see why we had to
Please don't misunderstand what I'm about to say
Know that I love you and will continue to care for you
So here it goes:

When I was your boyfriend, I took care of you
I did everything that I could to make you happy
I sacrificed things that I loved doing because I wanted you to be happy
Whenever you're sad, I'll go to the extremes to cheer you up
Whenever you're mad, I'd say sorry even if I didn't know what for
And although these things may have their own merit,
I've realized that there are times when this can be toxic

I forgot how to care for my own well-being and happiness

Don't misunderstand. You're a part of my happiness too.
I want to help you whenever you're in your down times
But do I really help you stand for yourself if I'll be the one to always be there? (I guess that's why people have always told me "you're too nice of a guy" when I should've been a good person)
There will come a day when I really can't be there for you
I am human after all, and there are situations that I cannot control
I want you to be strong
I want you to be independent
I want you to help yourself too
While we're away from each other,
Work on yourself
Focus on getting better
Always strive for a better version of you than yesterday

Now that we broke up
I want you to know that I do miss you
I long to hold your hands again
I long to kiss your soft lips again
I long to cuddle with you again
I long to say "I love you" and hear you say it back to me
I do miss you
A day doesn't pass by without my eyes tearing up
Don't ever think that I don't care about you, because I do and I hope you see it
Don't ever think my heart doesn't ache at the thought of not seeing you today, because it does
It does ache
And I feel it every day
.
.
.
So for now
Know this,
I love you
.
.
.
I will wait
.
.
.
I will wait until we're the best version for each other
.
.
.
I will wait.