Sometimes your smile.. makes my mind go blank.
And sometimes your laugh.. makes my heart skip a beat.
I hope you know how your words keep me awake at night. How your eyes can drown me more than the ocean. How your smile make the whole room brighter. How your laughter is more beautiful than my favorite love song.
You are so confusing. I hope I know how you feel every time you hold my hand and our eyes meet. I wish I'm not the only one who feels like dying every time we're close to each other. Because I die every time you say goodbye. I don't feel right when you say goodnight. A part of me dies when I think it might be our last. Last conversation. My last glimpse of you. So please, if you feel the same, tell me. Tell me before it's too late. Even if you don't feel the same, tell me still. I'm fine. I will be fine. Because I don't want to spend the rest of my life wondering.
Words I couldn't say. >.<
The water's blue
The sand's brown
As long as I'm with you
I won't feel down
The waves says, ssshhh!
I thought you'd stay
The wind blows, wooosh!
The end of my day
You are the kind of story
I will never get tired of
Reading over and over again
No matter how tragic the ending is.
My last piece for 2016. Let's make more beautiful stories in 2017 together.
He has a pair of brown eyes,
Eyes that can see through her when she is sad.
He has perfectly shaped nose,
that crinkles when she made a joke.
He has a clever tongue,
which words never fails to make her blush.
He has sharp ears,
always hear every word she says when she tells a story.
He has fair skin,
that calms everything it touches except her heart.
*He has all these but can never sense how she truly feels for him.
She hates the way he says her name,
He makes it sound more beautiful than ever.
She knows she will never hear them again.
She hates every time he tells a joke,
His jokes were never funny, but makes her laugh so hard all the time. She knows she will never hear one again.
She hates it when he makes faces,
It's so cute it makes her heart skip a beat.
She knows she will never see it again.
She hates it when they talk,
She can't even look at him in the eye.
She knows, it might be their last.
She hates it when his hands hold hers,
She really likes to.
She knows it is the same hands she has to let go.
She hates it when he says hi,
These two letters could make her day.
She knows she will never hear even one goodbye.
She hates it when he walks towards her,
Her heart beats with too much excitement.
She knows she will watch his back as he leaves her life forever.
Because pain demands to be felt. HAHAHA
You can't always gain what you've lost
Maybe someone's willing to be a replacement
Until he will be the one you treasure the most
But sometimes, the emptiness inside is permanent
He is not the guy I am looking for
But why did I find him?
He, who has eyes that says a thousand words
He, whose prose is nothing but absurd
He, who has a smile that makes everything brighter
He, who makes a not so good reader
He, who is a perfect gentleman
He, who makes an ordinary day to a best one
He, who cares so much about others
He, who turns winter into summer
He, who doesn’t want to see a girl cry
He, who is never afraid to give anything a try
He, whose heart already belongs to someone else
It doesn't really makes sense
Why do I have to meet someone as perfect as him
Only to make me feel that I can never have him
This is a goodbye poem, I guess? Hahaha
Just an almost midnight thought.
I used to hate cemeteries.
I hate the way it reminds me of my memories.
It reminds me how I lost someone and never had the chance to say goodbye.
Telling me I could no longer see him again no matter how much I cry.
It makes me regret of things that should have been and what ifs.
But when I visit you today for the first time, I was relieved that at least there was a place like this.
Where it can prove to me that you were once real.
That you really happened to me.
Your name engraved on the stone makes me remember that once in my life, someone like you existed and loved me.
I realized the true purpose of cemeteries- *to remember.
Inspired by Love is Dead.
Most of the time, holding on to something too wonderful for you cause you more harm than good. It will never stop from hurting you till you give everything up. Until you have nothing left. Letting go is always an option you never chose. For the fear of never having someone like him. For the fear of never seeing his smile again. For the fear of never having a chance to hug him. For the fear of not hearing his voice calling your name every morning. You are too afraid to be alone again.That you are more than willing to lose everything but him. Because having him is worth losing yourself.
I don't know how I came up with these words.
This is the place where you left me.
That night was the worst.
The sky was gray, stars are no where.
I was hurt. I was wrecked.
Never thought I would come back here.
For so long, I thought you have my heart with you when you left.
The truth is, I just left it here where our memories live.
Now I want to take it back to me.
There's no reason to stay.
I've been looking for the place named HAPPINESS
Where there is no fake smiles and wasted tears
Where there is no promises made to be broken
Where there is no hi that ends with goodbye
Where sorry is enough to cover up the pain
Where money doesn't define a person
Where I can be myself without anyone judging me
Or telling me how I supposed to be
Where yesterday is just a reminder for us to be better
Where tomorrow minds itself till its day comes
And where today is all that matters
*Can someone please lead me the way?
I hope everyone will find their true happiness.
I'm sorry if I have to leave you
But believe me when I say
I had a right reason
I left with no goodbye
Because I know if I looked at you're crying face
I would come back to you just to dry those tears
Then I saw you that day
I swear, I nearly lost my control
I wanted to hug you and never let go
I left with the right reason
You love me too much
That you don't think of yourself anymore
I love you too much
But I am not the one you deserve
I'm a poison to you
There is no such thing as over
Because no matter how many times you said we're done
Not a million "The End..."
Can make me stop from loving you
Love is painful they say.
It is all about hurt, miseries, and hatred.
But believe me when I say it's not.
Because what brings you pain is saying goodbye to the person you love.
To be alone when you used to be on on each others arms.
That is what really brings you sadness.
And love is the only cure.
Spread the love this season.
People who would go near me would surely get hurt
That's why I should isolate myself in a desert
Just like how much water a cactus can hold
The same amount of tears are waiting to be poured
Cause I feel like I'm a cactus.
It's not easy to sail a friendship
Especially when a storm comes
And it starts to sink
What's worse than that
Is when the friend leaves you alone
Watching you drown while trying to save the ship
But you have no right to get mad
Cause you are the one who created the storm
Sudden words from somewhere between my mind and heart.
She's still walking on the same street
Still craving for the same ice cream flavor
Still reading the same book to sleep
Still watching same action movie
Still going to the park before going home
Still listening to your fave song
Still dreaming the same dream
The only thing that has changed was now she is doing all of these alone.
Now she cry herself to sleep
And wake up in the afternoon just to sleep again
Just to not have to bear with the pain
A happy song filled the room
People are enjoying different games
They say happiness is contagious
But this loneliness is eating me
That even breathing is painful
Because every corner of this room
Is filled with our memories
We're together- in love
We used to be here
Now I'm alone
That even how happy people are
I know I will never be
Just your absence makes me wanna go home
October 27, 2015
Some days we shine so bright
Some days the light fades away
Is it me? Is it you?
Or is this love not meant to be at all?
A poem I made a year ago. I just found it written on a piece of paper and I feel like sharing it to you.
I didn't give up on us
Though both of us are hurting
Though both of us were already tired
Though both of us grew cold toward each other
Though both of us are lying
Though both of us are not okay
I didn't give up on us
I just accepted it
That this must end
No matter how wonderful it is
You should know that
You can never understand a person fully
You can only have a slight picture of how he feels
But you can never feel it like how he is feeling it
It can never affect you
Like how it can affects him
So don't act like you know everything
Because you may know something
But not the whole thing
One simple word, millions of interpretations
I don't need to explain this.
Have you ever wanted to cry
Not because you are sad or hurt
But because you feel nothing
And you wanted to feel alive again
You saw your reflection on the mirror
You were confused
Because that girl wasn't you
*It was the girl created by life and it's eternal suffering
I was afraid of love
It's just heartaches and sufferings
I forbid myself from falling
Because I know
No one would catch me but the ground
Then there was you
You said you were falling
I was ready to fall in love with you
But when I was falling really fast
That's when I realized
You were not with me
You had a parachute on
But no one was there to catch me
And I don't think I could ever love again
Cause Im broken
You've broke me beyond repair
When emotions are too strong
Pain and agonies are endless
When you've been crying all night long
And everything is a mess
Eyes are bloodshot red
Scars are covered with sweater
You' re better off dead
Cause life won't get better
We started off as friends
Either we'll stay as friends
Or end as friends
You came along in an unexpected time
With you, everything feels right
You do things just to make me happy
You were the stars that shine so bright
On my darkest night
But when the sun comes out,
You are nowhere to be found
You left before I could say goodbye
You left me wondering why
Why do you have to make me feel special
If it won't last forever anyway?
Why do I have to meet you?
Are you still coming back for me?
I wish I knew
You will never be forgotten
You will always be my favorite question mark
I don't know whyyyy
Saying goodbye is not the hardest part
But it breaks your heart
Not even seeing them walk away
And you can do nothing to make them stay
The hardest part is
Remembering the time when they promised
To be on your side forever
But fulfilling that promise with another
Limang taon na akong naghihintay
Sa puso mo'y magkaroon ng kaunting espasyo
Pag-asa'y unti-unting namamatay
Kailan ba dapat huminto?
Kung may araw na sa gabi?
Kung ubos na ang buhangin sa disyerto?
Kung matamis na ang tubig-dagat?
Kung ayaw ng magluto ni Spongebob ng Krabby Patty?
Dahil hindi ako titigil
Hangga't hindi pa nauubos ang nakaimbak kong "Kaya ko pa!"
Hangga't hindi pa napapatunayan kung may forever ba
At hangga't makalimutan ko na ang paghinga
When Is The Right Time to Stop?
I've been waiting for five years
To have even just a little space for me in your heart
Hope is slowly fading away
Please tell me when to stop
Till sun shines at night?
Till there is no sand left in the desert?
If the ocean's water is already sweet?
If Spongebob doesn't want to make krabby patty anymore?
Because I won't stop
Till I could say "I still can!"
If it is not yet proven uf there is really a forever
Till I forget how to breathe
Gaya ng pagtapos sa isang pangungusap
Nilagyan mo rin ng tuldok ang ating kwento
Sana'y huwag sumuko
Naalala ko ang iyong mga sinabi
"Kailangan nating tapusin ito
Upang makapag- umpisa tayong muli
Kahit hindi na ako maging parte ng iyo"
Ngayon ay nauunawaan ko na
Salamat sa pagligtas sa akin sa mga luha
Nahanap ko na ang tamang tao para sa akin
Na hanggang dulo ako'y mamahalin
Just like how a sentence ends
You also put a period in our story
I begged and cried
For you not to give up on us
I remember what you said
*"We have to end this
For us to start another story
Even if I am not part of yours."*
Now I understand
Thank you for saving me from tears
I've found the right one for me
The one who will love me until the end
Para sa buwan ng wika. :)
I can write a book about you
When you don't even know my favorite color, it's blue
The same feeling I get when I am missing you
I don't know why but also when I am *with you
Why love you, of myself I often ask.
Is it thy scent, or heartwarming whispers?
Or thy smile, in whose beams I often bask?
Oh why, I find thee as my universe?
Could it be your eyes, so filled with your love,
So beautiful, like opals in the sun.
Thy sweet laugh perhaps, warm snug like a glove.
Maybe your walk, robust and built to stun.
Yet, these things, they are merely physical.
I cherish your undying loyalty.
Never have I found one so loveable,
Your straight faithfulness fills my heart with glee.
As long as your love is only for me,
My love is pure and solely for thee.
collab with my brother Arvy. <3
The day you entered my world
You erased every painful things in it
You've made me the happiest girl
We are the author of our own story
Filled with sweets, rainbows, and butterflies
Until one day,
You wanted to erase yourself from my life
I don't think I could ever do that
Because since the first day
You have become my life - *my world
So please come back.
Do you remember?
When we're watching the sunset
You hugged me so tight
Like you would never let go
Now it's just a memory
A beautiful memory that I won't forget.
I never thought that a three second eye contact
Could rock my world like this
I just wanted you to notice me
It was never my intention to fall
I don't know where I lost control
Must have been somewhere between your smile and the way you dance
You have marked my notebook
But your smile left a mark on my heart and mind too
You are everywhere I go
And everyone I see
Take my heart with you
I don't need it without you
**I think I better Ron (run)
Fangirling. I dedicate this to the boy who made my day extraordinary. This is for you Ron Mclean Galang. <3
They asked me to compose a song
A song that would express my feelings
Feelings of love, hate, happy, or sad
I have finished it for a day
Only to see your name
On the white sheet of paper
Mkay. Just a 10 pm thought of a girl who is deeply in love.
You told me you were a yo-yo
That even if I always push you away
You will aways come back to me
But where are you now?
Why are you in another girl's hand?
*Now I realize that I don't even know how to play it
And maybe I didn't hold the thread tight
I am the stain
You are the white shirt
You can never appreciate me
Until you stop seeing me as a dirt
But as a work of art
It is all about how you see it.
Everytime you walk on my way
There are things I wanna say
"I like you!
Do you feel the same way too?"
Everytime you walk on my way
There are so many things I wanna say
I thought I was going to die
When I said **"Hi!"
This is me all the time. >.<
I don't know why
I turned my back on you
When I've had so many words on my mind
But I had no courage to say
That all I ever wanted is for you to stay
So I just walked away.