We were almost there
But I was so stupid to let you go
     I never wanted to
                      But I let it happen so
  Now I know
                     This is what I've been waiting for
       You are the one I've found
              The one worth fighting for
                                            I will fight for you.

It's scary that one day,
*We might regret all of this.

i swear
that smile can fix everything

with just that one look
i can feel all the collapsed pieces of my life
forthcoming from the rubble
but then you leave
as you always do now
and that gracious grin follows

then i remember
you're not mine to keep
and unfortunately
it’s a merciless existence
without you

s.s

when I was a child I thought I was beauty
when I was an adult I thought I was the beast
now that I am old I realise I am both
in perfect balance
and its okay

Heart pounds
Hands shake

Getting dizzy
Need a break

Anxiety falls like rain down on me
I really hope that no one sees

How small, how scared
How scared, how small

I'm really struggling with it all

I'm so tired.
Tired of living.
Tired of dying.
Tired of just being so tired.

To not feel is a curse.
& to feel is a blessing.

But what is the in between?
Exhaustion I think.

I'm just so tired.