Sitting on the cold roof of your ageing apartment, I could barely find a fresh breath of air while you abused smoke after smoke.

The taste of ***** so crisp on my tongue and yet it was you, that made me feel drunk.

I miss you less and less each day
and that breaks my heart in every way.


                                                ↠mndi➣

I will never be mourned over
never be missed

I will never be cried over
So I slice my wrist

dripping eyes

tearing skin

trying hard

to hurt within

because sometimes pain

is the last thing

we feel

and sometimes it is

better to feel pain

than to feel nothing

*at all

You awoke my heart with just one look
A big warm smile was all it took

With two hands on my waist you kept
And guided me with every step

We laughed we loved, our passion grew
I just couldn't get enough of you

Despite my depression and pain inside
You so easily made me realize

It's what's on the inside that people see
But I just didn't think very much of me

I hated everything I saw
Even though you'd say that's my only flaw

That I couldn't love myself at all
And I'd keep putting up these walls

"It's so simple" you'd always say,
Yet I kept pushing you away

Until that final fateful push
Was really all it took

To break everything we had
Sleeping in, laughing, loving- in an instant went bad

And because of me it's done
You were my punching bag, too late to run

Back into your arms where it was all okay
It's not anymore, I couldn't make you stay

Because I ended us in just one night
You won't take me back. We're done. You were right.