i want to scream.
i want to cry.
i want to feel something other than the numbness that's overtaken my thoughts for the past 2 months.
i want to tell the people how they hurt me,
how they made me sob on sleepless nights until no more tears came out.
i want to conquer my fears, anxieties
i'm ******* numb.
why is the only thing i can think about pain?
i don't truly want to end it all
i just want to feel alive again.
I stopped writing
Because I found that when I write
It’s so real.
It’s like hearing back my own words from the lips of someone wiser
Not from a broken child,
But from a bitter miser.
I am awake always
Painfully aware. I can’t sleep and I can’t quiet the noise in my head.
I finally broke down every wall for You
And you picked up every single stone
Just to throw it back at me.........
We lost each other,
Waiting for each other
To show they still cared.
But after all this time
We were poisonous
For each other
Loving the others taste.
I kept you warm
You turned me cold
You took the sun
No joy; behold
Ps: thanks Sir Jim.
is my favorite time.
a time for sweet hopes for the future
as i fall asleep once more.
i just wish that once in a while,
they'd come true
my big spoon.
you are the reason
for my smiles.
for the laughter through my tears.
for my sweet dreams.
for my hope and optimism in hard times.
i can't wait to marry you