I'm afraid of the future im afraid of myself I'm scared everyone I ever loved in my life will suddenly become nothing to me. I'm scared I'll never be loved. I'm afraid I love too much and empty myself into people because I think it will solve my loneliness but it always seems to get even worse. and i feel even more alone. I'm afraid I won't live to see the day I'm not depressed all the ******* time. I'm afraid I'll live too much, and not enjoy the moments that were special. I'm scared none of this will ever end. I'm afraid humanity will get even worse until we all **** each other into extinction. I'm scared all the girls who are victims of human trafficking will never get to live to see their loved ones for one last time. Im scared people don't see where the world is going. I'm scared I'll get sad one day and commit suicide even though I don't want to. I want to live I mutter to myself every night as I'm drowning in my own tears and I repeat it until I fall asleep. Im scared **** will never be addressed properly as it should be. I'm afraid all these sick people are still out lurking somewhere in the streets. I'm scared I'll be nothing in life. I'm scared I'll die tomorrow without feeling true love and happiness. I'm afraid I'll never move on im afraid I was never anything important. I'm scared she'll just be another memory . but I know nothing lasts forever and everyone leaves you one day... Which is hard to swallow, but it's the truth. Im scared of going to school and not having a single clue what im doing there because the boy wants to dream. But dreaming doesn't pay the rent you foolish kid. Dreaming gets you no where now continue to be a slave to society and follow these rules. Im scared my mom and dad will get deported leaving my sick sister vulnerable. I'm scared they'll lose their jobs then what would we do? I'm afraid of losing them. Im scared all my life has been a joke, I'm afraid im a waste of space. I'm afraid of being strangers again. I'm afraid it's too late...
" what keeps you up at 1 in the morning?" She asked
Just my mind I said