How deep I loved you,
a depth beyond my own understanding.
I longed to love you more,
yet every part of me
despised the very act of loving you—
after all the hurt,
all the damage you left behind.

I let go of my dreams of love,
yet somehow, I still loved you endlessly.
Oh, how you missed me once at 4 a.m.,
a message I never saw, and God knows that.
After that, I never slept until sunrise,
waiting, hoping you’d message me again—
but it never came.

I stayed awake,
watching the night slip away,
waiting for your words that never arrived.
My heart, consumed by longing,
oh, how I loved you—
how I loved you,
a love I hoped for,
but never felt returned.

The hurt you gave me ran so deep,
I wonder how much your love could have healed
if only it had been as pure as my longing,
if only it had been what I dreamed of

He gave her his heart, thinking it was safe,
believing her smiles were real, her love true.
But her words were a mask,
shadows of what she never meant to be.

He held on, even when the cracks showed,
begging her to stay, though she never stayed.
Each time she left, he believed it was his fault,
but it was only the echo of her lies.

She said he changed, became something dark,
but it was her truth that poisoned him, not his love.
In the end, he stopped pleading,
but the love he held for her never faded,
a flame that burned despite the lies.

He walked away, silence his final act,
But her memory stayed with him, a weight he couldn’t lift
He learned that love doesn’t always heal,
sometimes it just leaves you empty,
holding on to the ghost of what never was.
for in her lies, he lost more than just her—he lost the will to love

He thought love was a lie, yet still felt it inside,
He believes love is real, but not the way he once imagined it,
for it’s not beautiful—it’s pain disguised as passion.

Loving you slowly tore me apart,
A price I paid with an open heart.
The day I met you, I thought I’d be whole,
I thought you were perfect, the key to my soul.
I thought you’d bring peace, a love so deep,
But I was wrong, neither you nor I could keep.
Neither were you perfect, nor was I ever free,
Still, I loved you, though it swallowed me.

I gave my all, hoping you’d feel the same,
But you stayed distant, as I played the game.
I kept reaching out, but you pulled away,
And slowly, love slipped into disarray.

Even as your touch left me in pain,
I stayed, lost in the weight of your name.
Tears fell, hiding the hurt I knew,
For all my pain began with you.

I wish I could stop loving you,
erase it all in an instant—
every memory, every word, every dream.
But my heart still clings to the idea of you,
the version of us I begged you to fight for.
Not for me, but for everything we planned,
for the life we painted in fragile hope.
Yet you chose the world over me,
and I am left holding the silence.

I will never try to forgive,
never let this wound become a scar.
The grudge I carry will burn quietly within me,
a fire you’ll never feel, a weight you’ll never bear.
You chose to let go so easily,
but I will remember, always,
and in that memory, you will forever remain undeserving.

I couldn’t share my life with you,
So in dreams, I sought you too.
But even there, all I found was endless blue.

No light, no path, no hope in sight,
Just shadows in the endless night.
If not in life, nor dreams, then where?
I still search for you silently in dispair

I searched for you in the quiet rain,
Each drop a whisper of your name.
The skies wept soft, but still, in vain,
Their tears left nothing but empty flame.

I sought you beneath the crescent glow,
The moon a beacon for the lost.
Its light unveiled only shadows below,
A silver path I dared to cross.

I called for you where the wild winds roared,
Their voice like yours, but hollow, untrue.
They led me to places my heart ignored,
But never to the heart of you.

Through every void, I still pursue,
Each step a prayer, each breath a plea.
For even if all paths undo,
I’ll search through all eternity.

Within the void your absence made,
I wandered lost, in shadows stayed.
Yet in the silence, pure and deep,
I found a self I longed to keep.
A hidden flame, a quiet light,
Born from the depths of endless night.
Within the void your absence made,
I found myself, no longer afraid