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sab ariana Jan 8
there's someone living inside of me
my friends think it's just the poppy seeds all of them talking down on me like they're occupying hockey seats i'm telling you there's more than just one part of me it feels like my souls been split possibly for three

you see i'm the one resting under melancholy tree you can call me number 2 im always feeling rather blue its just i don't really care nor do i want to be here but for some reason i get the most space i guess you can say i'm like the head chair of this place

while she may be the head i'm the one who rips off heads fill their mouths up with lead three is me and i just want to see them all dead i want to start a massacre i want to throw this axe at her hahaha im a little bit scary but i got to go now i still have some things left to bury

"he loves me, he loves me not" ooo my turn it came faster than i thought hi all ! i'm sweeter than a cherry and ill charm you like a fairy watch me bat my eyelashes its my personality look at all the smiles it catches mhm yes i'm number one and i'm also the most fun

this is the dilemma i face exhaustion  always awaits
if man is five then why am i eight?
is it mental illness or is it bc im a pisces?
sab ariana Jan 3
im so ******* exhausted i need to rest
the constant ebb and flow the mental unrest
testing time patience dies
my tears and their lies
their fears and my cries
i cant stop fighting i need to reach the end
im not like them i cant pretend
floating in a sea of eighty eyes i am alone
will someone please take my hand
will someone please take me home
i need to rest
so that tomorrow i may rise
sword in hand and ready to die
life is war every day is a battle
Nov 2020 · 107
the call
sab ariana Nov 2020
in the void
the darkness
the sapphire shadows below
i have waken soon all of mankind will know
from the waters i rise
to bring you a cold wet demise
the tides they turn  the moon she burns
the great flood is here
the ground soaks in the oceans tears
oh my followers they wept
deep down in the depths
how long have i slept?
celestial dreams my planet of rings
judgment and their cries
"no one can escape her watchful eyes"
judgment she cries
welcome aboard my painful ride
now that i am awake terra she shakes
man is five and yes i am eight
the tentacles from your nightmares
the dreams that you hate
the cleanse has begun
my song  is now sung
all hear my call
the great cthulhu brings you your fall
dun dun dunnnnn i was listening to the call of ktulu by metallica and idk i guess i got inspired
sab ariana Oct 2020
i asked him do you believe in fate?
i always give more than i take
tell me what it is you hate
cant stand my friends they're all so fake

i know you want me dead
why don't you just take my head?

i know that you want to **** me
but i just want you to feel me

up and down my mood swings
im so dumb when i do these things
im so numb after all these drinks

now tell me will you be my end?
i just need a friend
lets play pretend

im okay
my stream of thoughts
sab ariana Oct 2020
i'm on a drug binge
poison leaking from me like i'm singed
singed is a character from league of legends, he leaks out this poisonous gas. after a long night of hard drugs i feel like poison is leaking from my pores much like that guy.
sab ariana Oct 2020
i am waiting for you
to get out of my head
i am waiting for you
to come see me in bed
and after our fun
well grab our gun
splatter the walls red
it will be delicious
a mouthful of lead
together forever
now that were both dead
contrary to what i say, i really don't want to die. i promise, i couldn't even hurt a fly. let alone you. i want you to live for as long as you can. because the world needs you my precious man.
Oct 2020 · 105
ouch
sab ariana Oct 2020
three of swords
my mother called me a *****
three of swords
he said he loved me he swore
three of swords
he pushed me down to the floor
three of swords
i've turn rotten right to the core
three of swords
life has become such a chore
three of swords is a tarot card, it's an image of a large bleeding heart with three swords piercing it, in the background of the picture you can see stormy weather. i have it tattooed on my arm, i do have a big heart with a lot of love to give. i love love. i love being in love, i grow and thrive through love. i think i'm strong and i have overcome a lot of hurt in my life. but unfortunately there are some traumas from my past that are stuck in my heart like a knife. i just keep bleeding.
Oct 2020 · 68
green hair boy
sab ariana Oct 2020
i just want to be held
thinking of you
i can't help but to miss
the way that it felt
Oct 2020 · 85
this ones for you joseph
sab ariana Oct 2020
i want to run and jump and land on that picket fence
i want the wooden point to go through me
i want my blood to splash into my neighbors tea
i want to smash my face into that lens
i want the glass to cut my ears off
i want nothing to be left of my face other than mushy and soft

he licked his lips as he killed me

it should happen now if i say it in past tense
i screamed as he cut me up
then he blended me and drank me from his favorite cup
a little gruesome sorry i thought of a million different ways i could **** myself while i was trapped with him, i would fantasize about it while we would be driving in the car together. i was always so scared though, too scared to even **** myself, well actually i tried once and failed and got beat for it haha ohhhh man. i thought for sure the only way out was him killing me and i felt like it was coming. the moon gave me the courage to escape though. thank you moon, literally it was a full moon and i was sitting outside...he was there of course he never left my side. but for a moment he went inside to get more alcohol and i spoke out loud to the moon i asked her to give me the strength to save myself and i swear to god i saw a shooting star fly across the sky. i'm alive today i'm grateful. thank you god.
Oct 2020 · 123
97 lbs
sab ariana Oct 2020
i feel the pain of hunger
but i can't eat
i hear my stomach calling out to me
but i can't eat
i can possibly force down something sweet
but i can't eat
look at what you've done to me
at least i can still sleep
i havent ate in a long time but i do be sleeping for hours
sab ariana Oct 2020
meow meow
i just want to lie on your bed
i want you to give me a little pat
right on top of my head
yeah you can play your games
just tell me im a good girl
well, thank you for the treats
ill just lie here in your bed
oh, no i dont mind
drinking some of your milk instead
ew this one is gross hahahahah i spent a week in this guys bed we didnt leave the house at all and he played video games the whole time but he bought me a lot food we didnt even really talk i felt like a pet cat just sleeping in his bed all day he would give me good cuddles when hed finally get off his **** computer and come to bed at night ugh am i crazy or is he idk someone please tell me
Oct 2020 · 140
pain ahh the pain
sab ariana Oct 2020
please make it stop
the pain of a beating broken heart
why wont it stop?
nothing is moving
except the hand on my clock
when will it stop?
it's unbearable
terrible
maybe i can rip it out
or drive a stake through it?
something please make movement
everything is so still
am i alive?
have i died?
all the days they seem to blend
will this pain not go away
not even at the end?
god make it stop
**** me if i'm not already dead
someone please
i'm begging you take my head
Oct 2020 · 161
phoenix
sab ariana Oct 2020
darker than black
my brain turns
as every memory rips through me
torn tendons broken bones
i fall apart
as the icy cool smoke
escapes my tortured body
it ignites a blue fire inside me
whispers from my past fade away
i rise from the ashes
this time with a vengeance
that will burn anyone it catches
i am born again
Oct 2020 · 161
karma
sab ariana Oct 2020
my brain is rotting inside my head
visions of my death
creatures from hell
pestilence swarm around me
while screeching memories burst through
the sutures of my skull
i fall through the seven layers of heaven
back onto this earth
a ****** soul forsaken
i call out to god
but only hear back from satan
sab ariana Oct 2020
in a field of babies breath
i see my anael, my angel
her emerald glare bestows upon me
the end of my despair
beauty and love are mine
and i am hers
and through her fire
in magic chains to bind throw mad desire
in this waste land
i can feel her grace and
oh anael, oh my angel
Oct 2020 · 183
true love
sab ariana Oct 2020
ocean blues me and you
you are everything
my dreams they're of you
and you see me in yours too
drowning in the ocean
i wish you could feel my love
drowning in the ocean
i wish you could feel my pain
and so i wait
till the day we're engulfed by the sun
you are the lion
you are the home i will lie in
i know you're the one
sab ariana Oct 2020
there's a battle going on inside my mind
i dont know what is real
i dont know what thoughts are mine
constant gunfire
everything moving except for time
the casualties are high
i gather and lay our dead in a line
my brain is bleeding
its turning more sour than a lime
i'm going insane
trying to replace what i can't find
Oct 2020 · 122
dark priestess
sab ariana Oct 2020
the violence brewing inside me boils and catalyzes the birth of malice,
from my womb of darkness;
i can not feel the pain anymore.
rather,
i do not care about the pain anymore.
my heart in chaos.
my consciousness slipping away from me.
i pray to be born again:
no longer human,
no longer who i am.

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