I get tired of things.
I use them as much as possible
Until I don't like them anymore.

Whenever I have a favorite song
I listen to it over and over and over
Until I'm completely sick of it.
And I don't like it anymore.
In fact
I hate it.

And sometimes I eat so much of something
That I don't want it again
At least not any time soon.

I've done three years of debate
And loved every minute of it.
But to be honest
I'm kind of over it.

And I've liked a lot of guys in my lifetime
Once I get them
If I do
I'm over it.
I'm over them.

But sometimes I hear my old favorite song on the radio.
Or I taste that food I gorged on.
Or I have to watch someone debate, instead of debating myself.
Or I hear the guy's name.

And I love it all over again.

My name isn't Rosie
It's Rose.
That's what it says on my birth certificate
That's what everyone calls me.
That's what I introduce myself as.
My name's Rose.

But when I was younger everyone called me Rosie.
When someone was annoyed with me, they'd call me Rose.
All my memories of someone calling me Rosie are nice.

Rose sounds grown up to me.
It makes me more accountable.
Which sounds really dumb.

Honestly, I like the name Rose more.
But sometimes I just want to be little girl again
I want to be Rosie.

"They're just doing it for attention."
So?
Give them attention then.
If someone is starving themselves,
or cutting themselves,
or hurting themselves in any other way,
Just so someone will notice,
Just to see if someone cares.
Then give them some ******* attention.

I've always had this sense of entitlement.
This thought that I deserved to have certain things.
After all I always learned if you work hard you get results.

That is sometimes true.
And it's good to work hard.
But you shouldn't depend on it as truth.

Because one day,
You're going to be waiting for your acceptance letter.
And instead get an email saying you didn't get the appointment.
And if you're used to getting what you want.
That's going to hurt.

Happiness is boring.

Obviously you like it if you're the happy one.
But it's boring to witness.

No one watches tv shows about happy people.
No one writes sonnets about how happy someone is.

Everyone says their goal is to be happy, but that's not true.
Power, money, love; sure.
But no one really sets happiness as a goal.

If you want to be happy, just be happy.
Put down what you're doing and smile.
Go do your favorite thing.

But you can't.
Why?
Because you're doing something important right now.
Like school or work.
For what?
Money and power.
Not happiness.