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Ronney Apr 2016
At the core of every secret

Is the truth*

A truth we are unwilling to divulge

Yet through time we evolved

To learn truth is the best solve
~ for a time the truth may rain havoc but lies will lead to certain death

~ moral of the story - as difficult as it is its best to always tell the truth even if its ugly
Ronney Apr 2016
At first, it was just one

You said you could stop

"I just want to try one'

But Soon you lost control

one became two

Two turned to four

Soon you were popping pills

Like never before

You'd claw at your skin

Searching for the crawling things

You became erratic

Destructive and frantic

I broke-down

Crying and begging

'Please, won't you stop this'

Don't you see what it's done

Your showing signs already

'It's made you an addict'
Sometimes we aren't able to handle the things we think we can.

That doesn't mean we can't overcome it we just need a little support and help and someone who can see sense when we don't.
Ronney Apr 2016
Silent pleas

Become the loudest screams

Of one begging help me

From day to night

By your side

There I'll wait

To be your aid

I'm all ears

For you

my dear
~ if anyone feels like talking I'm all about listening

Talking was never my strong suit anyway :)
Ronney Apr 2016
Ask me, as you will

The question with an autimatic fill

I will undoubtedly lie untill  

You believe the answers real

In order to deal

Because truth be revealed

The real answer holds no appeal

Because

*no I'm not okay
~ I have no doubt that at some stage everyone has been asked the question which seems to come with the automatic fill -I'm fine-  let's be honest it's okay not to be okay thats part of being human. Okay? :)
Ronney Aug 2016
Names were casted down like stones

Layers upon layers

We lied buried beneath its weight

We were crushed  

It'd been too heavy to carry

Too much to bare

We'd succumbed

For today we'd lost the battle
For today I let me myself lose

I give up
Ronney Apr 2016
When all is wrong with the world

But the world says

'something is wrong with you'

Do you comply to their judgement?

Assessing all that is wrong with you

Picking and prodding

Changing and morphing

Till there's nothing left of you

But a mere whisper of what you once were

Becoming a product of the world

Say this to the world

Say that Your life

begins and ends with you
Ronney May 2016
Mouths filled to the brim

With sugar filled words

Promises of the things we

Should've

would've

And

could've

Done

Only when the time comes

For old promises to be called on

they vanish, Into the air

As does the value

In what you say

~~~~~~~~
Your word is only worth how much of it you keep

If you make a promise keep it
Ronney Jul 2016
Life weighs us down with burdens

But

We have reason to raise our heads up

dont forget to raise your head

:)
Ronney May 2016
His sharp words

We're like sparks

Fuel to a torrent of anger

Enough to build a flame

That grew into a raging fire

That was quick to spread

Doming all within its path

Destroying the one at the very core of the fire

Then came the tears in the form of rain

Flooding the earth reducing the fire

To mere flames easily extinguishable

Sparks no longer able to reignite again

All there was to see was the last dying flame

Leaving behind a trail of pain
Ronney Aug 2022
Only in despair
Do we truly seem to care
but why need it go so far
to realize, visualize  
what was kept bottled now ajar
For all that we suppress
For all that we're not ready to face
for the moment you are
the moment you see anew

I hope you get the answers :)
Ronney Dec 2017
They run deep
They are heavy
They make the heart unsteady
Easy to flow
Harder to control
They blind & make the mind weary
To share is to expose
Ones mind
Ones body
Ones soul
These are the feelings
Unwarranted
Denied
Or
Yet to be made known
~Reflection: Feelings or emotions are sometimes hard to understand because they are experienced simultaneously. The catalyst is not always known & sometimes we don’t want to acknowledge them because doing so reaffirms that they exist and they are real.

~hope you enjoyed :)
Ronney Apr 2016
Dear sister

Why do you stay?

Through your suffering?

Through your pain?

he's marked the flesh

I see the shame

If only you'd speak the truth.

Give in his name

Dear sister

You know, I love you dear

Iv tried to keep you close

Though you shrink back in fear.

Dear sister

You know, he won't stop

You say that he loves you

Yet, the bruises say more

Dear sister

Show no fear

Please have strength

Leave before death appears
Dear sisters and brothers (that's right I said brothers) speak up tell the truth and free yourselves.

speak out if you need help.

Sorry to any men victims of violence also because Iv put focus on women but I know that men suffer violence against them sometimes at the hands of women or men so I apologise.
Ronney Apr 2016
Depression is not a phase

This is a point i want to raise

Sufferers, do not seek attention

As the stigma likes to mention

Its a mental condition

Just as harmful as an addiction

Listen

And take it serious

*Depression is not a phase
~ my generation have degraded depression from being a mental illness to a way of seeking attention and the seriousness of the condition seems to have been lost an them (myself being part of this group)

Id like to re establish the seriousness that it actaully holds
Ronney Apr 2016
This sadness is but a phase

The numbness will take away

But it seems in humane

To feel nothing

Isn't that something?
~numbness makes me question if I'm human when I don't feel
Ronney May 2016
We keep at arms length

The ones we want to be closest to

Because of the fear

we're being played for a fool

Or have come to care that

We are the ones being cruel

For me

*It was the best way to avoid the ridicule *

~~~~~~~
~ Im sorry I get scared of people getting close to me because they have the potential to hurt me .

But you've began to change me

It frightens me that I'm changing

~ you make me think people are worth hurting for
Ronney Mar 2022
Push and Pull.
Acting the fool.
Sick and tired.
Done with the bull...

Its time to be honest.
Haven't done that in the longest...
Its one of many, A failed promise.

We each had our role.
Both digging into that hole.
These things, chip away the mind and soul.

Gentleness sometimes gives way to resolve.

Kind words are a pleasure.
Given in truth an absolute treasure.
Although we don't always have it altogether.
Somehow we manage to storm the weather.
we each have our story and play dual roles. Everything is a matter of perspective. We are both antagonist and protagonist. That what i wanted to capture in this. Haven't completely cracked it but this is my best for now. Hope you enjoyed :)
Ronney Apr 2016
A work of art

Can come from humble beginnings

Just like an empty canvas

Fuelled with endless possibilities

Chances are it'll turn out

A masterpiece
Not sure if this qualifies as poetry or philosophy but it's what I believe

point being what may seem like nothing could turn out to be anything

Therefore take a chance on anything and everything (within reason) :)
Ronney Apr 2016
Though I'm broken

I'm in the process

Of making progress

**Mendings my focus
~ its hard putting things together again but not impossible sometimes I forget that
Ronney Mar 2018
Praying with anticipation
Hoping the time never appears,
when the mind quits, the heart splits and life is held with a loosened grip.

Be Brave, Be Fearless
Be Strong, Be Bold


Lock hands, take heart and don’t let go
Reach out, speak out and let us know

Promise

When your ready
You’ll be guided towards the right road.
-Everyone needs help at some point, but we are reluctant to seek it for a variety of reasons such as pride and shame.

- There is no shame in asking for help.

-The humbling of ones character is the growth of ones character

-The first step to getting help is to help your self. To do this you must reflect and have self awareness. Be completely honest with yourself acknowledge that help is needed.

-Help must then be accepted in order to take effect.
Ronney Apr 2016
Taught  through criticism

Thoughts were fuelled with cynicism

Feeling love was conditioned

According to our submission

We were imprisoned

In our minds where we envisioned

Better lives it became a mission

Tears, sweat and blood were always a given

But we've risen

Above these constrictions

Freed from our prisons

To make acquisitions

To make decisions

Based on valid reason

We were raised to be different

A generation of deliverance

That would

**be of great significance
~ they way in which you are raised will shape a persons view in life and what we believe needs fixing or doing
Ronney Apr 2016
We work best at our worst

A network chain of support

Emerging from paths of destruction

We band together in order to function
~ humanity can not function without unity

~sometimes our best qualities only come out at the worst of times let's see if we can change that and make it at all times :)
Ronney Apr 2016
I aspire to be like an artist

In the way they paint a portrait

Capturing every detail

But instead of using paint

there's only my words

instead of a canvas and paintbrush

There is only my pen and paper

Waiting to be written on

And in its own right

Take form

In becoming a work of art
~ wrote this while updating my bio thought it could be poetic so why not share it :)
Ronney Apr 2016
Not up to the standard

That normal demanded

I was a random

An outsider abandoned

But as we grew older

Choices Became more bolder

normal became variety

Building up our society
~ the common perception people have come to believe  is that normal Is being the same as everyone else, that not right that would be conformity.

~Normal has always been people's individuality

So here's a lesson

~ own it, your individuality I mean because that makes you normal you'd be the normal you and that's what we want from you :)
Ronney Apr 2016
As much as you try to reassure

my mind keeps reeling

With thoughts, sometimes obscure

*One can not always help

feeling insecure
Sometimes we see ourselves in the worst kind of light
All you need to do is persuade your mind and see your self through a new and different lense
Ronney Apr 2016
With my thoughts I condemn

Truth is, I envy them

Because they are true to themselves

Not pretending to be anything else

A  portrayal of what I want to be

I just want to be me

**not ashamed for all to see
~ sometimes at the core of our judgment is the reflection of ones inner self our  hidden part of oneself

Also if you notice the bold lines actually say something on there own you just put the pieces together :)
Ronney May 2016
In order to really live

One must participate in life

Or

You'll only live to die

existing to survive

Deprived in life

~~~~~~~~~
~There are many times when I viewed the lives of other people thinking why do they seem to have it good?

~ I realise I had always known the answer but I was unwilling to concede

~ if you want a good life you have to work for it, it won't just fall into you lap

Lesson: we are all responsible for our own happiness and our own lives
Ronney Apr 2016
When you live in order to survive

Yet you need to revive

The slither of life you hold inside

You must decide

Be successful and feel alive

Or

Deprive yourself and be unsatisfied

**

sometimes we live only to exist, waiting for something to give meanings to our lives

*We need to remember we are solely responsible for our own happiness and we chose what brings meaning into our lives
Ronney May 2016
Searching for missing possessions

We were directed

To

The lost and found

There  items waited to be collected

Items that owners neglected

Forgotten For years

Left  unprotected

the lost and found

Didn't simply end in the lost and found

But within the world

There were a collective group of people

A division between

Those who are lost

And those who are found

~~~~~
The world is the biggest collection

Of lost and found items

Items can include people
Ronney Mar 2021
Don't take much to shatter,
what's already bruised & battered.
Cant say "no offence intended"
Cause the content of the next sentence
you spew,  you know wont flatter.

The intention is to hurt.
Grind your target into dirt.
Passed off as a joke
****, felt my self confidence just broke.

Putting in all that work
takes courage to believe in your self worth
only to have people on a mission
sharing all their criticism
non-constructive just destructive
making you question all decisions
till the mind can only think in tunnel vision

brings you to the point when your alone
all those affirmations become monotone
cant draw inspiration cause all feeling has turned to stone
Some take it to heart till all they long for is to turn into bone
-Sometimes its better to hold your words
learn to say things right
Get to know somebody before you hand out your advise
Sometimes the person you talk to might not be ready
to hear it
Ronney Apr 2016
Sometimes my words escape

And I make mistakes

In what I wanted to say

I hope that's okay

Especially when I say

Go away

what I'm really saying is?

*please stay
~ sometimes the things we say get lost in translation or interpreted with different meanings

~ how do you make it clear?
Ronney Apr 2016
It saddens me

You don't believe

Your someone worth loving

*Your loveable to me
~ all people are loved just in different ways and it's not always clear

~we all deserve to be loved don't let anyone tell you different :)
Ronney Apr 2016
Through time

I came to find

My biggest enemy

Was To be no one else  

But myself

For i chose how **i dealt

With the way i felt
~ what are you supposed to do when you fight with yourself?

~my answer for now: make peace and take control
Ronney Mar 2022
the Words do not thrive
Spoken with derision  
its the lack of ambition
no will, no way, no drive

Hope to inspire. I try.
All ideas have shriveled up, fallen away and died.
Washed up, gone away with the tide.
Wasting away, waiting here, biding my time.
Pray the words come back, A treasure I seek to find.
Been craving for the words to come to me.
Every thought and idea has been so elusive
Ronney Apr 2016
From the moment of impact

I knew things would be different

I try to pretend there was no difference

But in an instant

Everything became distant

Our lives were forever changed

Never to be the same

As the moment of impact claimed

And took you away

Id live to see another day

Forced To go our separate ways

In which you die

In which i live

i might as well have died with you

*Now i live only to miss you
~ there are moments in life where the occurance of an event is enough to change the course in which you were headed and the people headed there with you
Ronney May 2016
I can't help but notice

That the things worth noticing

Are things that go unnoticed  

Word of advice

Change your focus

Filter out the useless bogus

Notice the unnoticed
~ the world is full of things to see but I only wish too see the things that gets ignored most of the time it's simple things like little kind gestures and actions but because they happen on a regular basis makes it extraordinary and beautiful especially when you take notice
Ronney Apr 2016
sit and stare

My Mind impaired

Emotions not there

Nobody dares

To come near

They fear

They'd make a tear

Rip me to shreds

Impossible if nothings there

Im to numb to care
~ why dont i feel?
Ronney Apr 2016
One, Was all it took

One that **didn't overlook


What everyone else would

One was a revolution

Provider to solution

One made a difference

Through resistance and persistence

Qualities rare in existence
~when odds are one to none **one is enough** :)
Ronney May 2016
To the outcasts*

Do what it takes to outlast

The seemingly endless backlash

You were made to surpass

All the useless trash

~~~~~~~~

Don't forget that some of the worlds greatest figures were outcasts who changed the world because they were different.

They saw the world differently

And they had courage to be and stay different even when branded as an "outcast"
Ronney Jul 2016
The blame I own

Give excuses to deny it

i won't

Say lies to hide it

I don't

Cause that behaviour I don't condone

Just One question for you though...

**are you willing to take credit for blame of your own?
I won't deny blame when it's deserved in fact I'll own it I only expect you to do the same
Ronney Apr 2016
I once believed

perfection was beauty

But it took me years

To finally see

That perfection is flaws

Just worn beautifully
~ just felt like saying that all flaws come with beauty~

Poems a little on the rough side sorry :)
Ronney Apr 2016
As smart as we try to be

We're prone to idiocy

So I apologise in advance

Hope you'll Forgive me

For my stupidity
~ poems says it all though it's intended to be comical :)

~hope it gives you a laugh
Ronney Apr 2016
A dangerous path towards failure

Do yourself a favour

Work on your behaviour

And be your own saviour

We can't always afford

Reckless behaviour

*especially at the cost of a life
~ there comes a point in life were we must all be held accountable for our actions and take charge of our responsibilities that doesn't mean we can't have fun along the way it just means have fun responsibly :)

~ when I'm an old person trapped in a young body lol
Ronney Apr 2016
When sadness becomes a burden

Consumed by how hard were all hurting

Eyes will let loose a flood

Body will suffer from loss of blood

Smashing things up

Because I'm not that tough

Sinking to the ground

I'll drown

Yet in the aftermath

When past has passed

I'll find peace in tears

Refreshed to see all is clear
~ I find peace after reaching my lowest point because like the saying I know "there's nowhere for me to go except up"

~ crying is a major outlet so people who fight it don't let the tears come and go so that you may be refreshed afterwords
Ronney Apr 2016
Scars

Became like jail bars

Trapping us within its confines

Slowly Being De-humanised

In the public eye

Because they only saw a living landmine

But

I learned that

I

Had no need to deny

What's mine

For the public is blind

to see, scars don't define

They simply tell a story line

Intertwined

With the scarred design
~ inspired by a quote I found - from every wound there is a scar, from every scare there is a story, a story that says I survived - Craig Scott
Ronney Apr 2016
Spent a lifetime

searching for a purpose

Only to figure

That the purpose

For a life time

Would be to **make one

Worth pursuing
~We spend a life time asking the same question a million times, in a million different ways yet the outcome is always the same

So here's the lesson

~instead of looking for life's purpose how about we lead a life with purpose and strive after something we believe is worthwhile
Ronney May 2016
When you let the mind debate

The things you distaste

About yourself, what a waste

Foolish to take the bait

Failing to contemplate

The fact were letting self hate dictate

Our lives, sealing fate

~~~~~
Self hating is when you seek out the flaws but fail to see "self beauty" (yes I may have made that up but it should be a thing - stay humble though ;) lol )  

Challenge for everyone- seek the best in yourselves (what you love about your self)
Ronney Oct 2016
The act of breathing is a struggle

When were sinking

Because we're drowning

With all our thinking

If you want a way out

You need to learn to start swimming
~ at some point we all begin to drown and the only way out is to swim

~if you can't swim (like me lol) don't worry you have the support of a life raft (your family and friends)

~make use of it hold on to it until you learn to keep your head above the water on you own ( remember that life raft is always there for use)

~ as a wise fish once said "just keep on swimming"
Finding dory
Ronney May 2016
As daylight thins

As the night closes in

People retreat into homes

Feeling the protests of aching bones

Voices whisper in hushed tones

Laying down our heads

Putting our bodies to rest

Slowing down of breath

Calm beating chest

Sleep soon follows in step
~ when your tired and burned out you know it's time for a rest/break/sleep

~ point being don't overwork yourself you know when it's time for a break and so does your body take the hints and feel rejuvenated after a good nights rest

~ lol sorry but you could probably tell I'm really sleepy now
Ronney Apr 2016
The smallest of gestures

Can hold the biggest measure

Of ones love

And ones heart
~ i find that the greatest joys in life can be found in the smallest and simplest acts
Ronney Aug 2022
For all that I am aches.
For all I must forsake.
It is the unfortunate. Destined fate.
The final moment, we do not wake.
When the time comes, you will break.
When the time comes, let go of keepsake.
When the time comes, rebuild and remake.
Knowing you go on gives peace in mind.
Knowing you will be strong keeps my spirit alive.
If these are my last words to be made known.
Let it be known I am overcome in an abundance of love.
Let be known that the abundance of Love I return.
For eternity x infinity.
In experiencing and witnessing the passing of loved ones iv been prompted to think on the things that I would want for my family/friends to know in the final hours.

In working as a Nurse Iv seen many deaths and the heartache that happens from all sides. There is the pain in letting go. There is the suffering when you refuse to and also when you finally do. Sometimes when its time you will know.

But, in those final moments what I most often see is that from each side (That of the person dying and those experiencing the loss) each find comfort in being there for one another and witnessing that one is not alone, that the other will be in peace and the other taken care of.
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