1.
do Drugs because without Drugs
there is no inspiration
without inspiration
there is no Drugs
this is all said with wide distant looks
with swinging wrists
fingers comb the hair
fingers pick at the skin
without Drugs
there is no poetry
no music
no ambition
no sleep
there is no awkwardly standing there
as he tells you,
little bee, joust teen mean huts
there is no biased observer
watching the Drugged tumble
like laundry
down stairs.
surely this can’t be a good idea
don’t try to leave
don’t be awkward
surely
2.
do Drugs because you will see
finally see!
things no one else could ever see
so swallow that joint
eat that pill
smoke those shrooms,
but for the love of GOD!
not by themselves
place them strategically
in a peanut butter sandwich
like stars in a constellation
you will know better next time
he tells you to smoke shrooms
you will feel your bare feet
but you’re wearing socks!
you will feel like you’re crying
but there aren’t any tears!
you will see your curtains take the shape of your mother
folding her arms
looking down at you
wearing a dress
that isn’t her color
or her size
or her style
or even her at all
finally you will see these things
that you were never able to see before
question the experience
and he will sigh
with sighs of such size
that say you just don’t understand
3.
do Drugs because you will realize
Alex Grey paintings
in that pin-up calendar
will mean so much more
which painting is brightly looming over your birth month?
oh, so, the one that looks quite good
where the subject’s skin is transparent
revealing muscles and veins and organs
a stock buddhist symbol glowing on their forehead
their mouth agape
a misty sort of energy
radiating from their body
swallowed by neon
what a coincidence
mine, too
he’s a Grey-t artist, isn’t he?
don’t say this
despite how clever it sounds
4.
do Drugs because
there will be a moment
when that cartooned weasel
with his too-appropriate leather jacket
and lollipop stick ***** from a snaggled lip
and Nancy Reagan
her wild hair
her eyes that seem to be sinking inward
will seem like the same person
this is just your guilt
your incessant questioning
of what is right
and what is rite
your wanting to just say no
and to just do it
resting in the same swaying sweaty hammock
your waning spirit to overthink
and he will just look at you
as though no one feels
the way you do
you will never understand
5.
do Drugs because you must understand
because you’ve always understood
because you’ve always been understanding
intangible ideas will whisper vaguely at you
that you thought you knew enough about
you just aren’t feeling the love like we are
you just aren’t seeing the universe like we are
you just aren’t feeling the energy like we are
you just aren’t seeing the beauty of things like we are
love universe energy beauty
these things are simple
when gruffly whispered
over a slice of space cake
this space cake is out of this world!
don’t say this
despite how clever it sounds
6.
do Drugs because
you will have the perfect disorder
for your flaws
flaw and disorder
I’m out of it because
I might of inhaled a little
too much
I’m thankless because
of a pill I should not have
taken
I’m jittery because
I swallowed a couple
extra
I’m sleepy because
I would rather feel this way than look
at you
I fell down the stairs
because it’s Cinco de Mayo
and I can’t find my grinder
and I’m surprised that you’re sober
and I can’t feel my shoulder
and I’m surprised you’re not older
I swear I’m not always like this