What is worse than being
Confused about how
And what I feel about you.

My mind says,
"I'm afraid to love you"
But my heart says
*"I'm much more afraid to lose you"

I carry my pain all across my wrist,
No one wants to see me like this,
No one cares, but everyone knows,
That I’m just hiding all my lows.

I gave up a fight, not worthy of life,
But one day I woke up, still alive,
If sorrow and pain will ****, now I’m dead,
Looking at myself above there instead.

I came this far, not knowing why,
I’m still alive, all a lie,
Since day one I’m ill,
Surely, no big deal.

I know one day, I’ll be dead,
YES! It’s finally the end,
Where no people will wear red,
Good bye is my only end.