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Rhianecdote Nov 2014
I'm tired of shallow people, I'm tired of deep people, I'm just tryna go with the flow people, do what I gotta do to stay afloat people, get in my rubber dinghy and go people. Cause maybe I belong with those boat people, when dry land doesn't understand that I float people. Fish outta water I choke people. So do me a favour and forget I even spoke people...
#deep #shallow #fish #tired
Rhianecdote Nov 2014
Lately I've been a bit careless,
this stress causing me distress.
Just wish I could care less...
#stress #care
Rhianecdote Nov 2014
They said he had commitment issues
as he hung from the beam.
Toing and froing
tolling their grief.
Change in his pockets and a crumpled receipt.
Ticket for one, a show never seen.

Pacing around him
the floorboards they squeak.
Flashes and flash backs,
some think him weak.
A life never lived
and a love ever lost.
The ending of his story its ultimate cost.

And they said he had commitment issues,
so he hung from that beam.
Toing and froing,
telling his grief.
One way ticket, discarded seat.
No place for change in his darkened genes.
#commitment #depression #death #sad #love #loss
Rhianecdote Nov 2014
But you're nothing more than an insomniac, focused entirely on the things you lack. You muse you dream but in the end you slack and you have no one but yourself to thank for that.
The sun beckons but you ignore its calls, deafened by your worries and the doubt that stalls, all you want to do and what you hope to be, the hope that lifts you up momentarily, before the clouds impair your sight and the sun now too close appears to bleed light that has now become too bright
and just like Icarus hope gets burnt and falls back down to the ground where now it crawls.
You try to lift yourself up and stare warily at those around you and try to see,
what it is they possess that you don't have but you are filled with nothing but jealousy.
The sun is not for you is what you decide so the darkness is where you now reside. You wonder if from your mind you will ever be free.
I guess not, cause your mind belongs to me.
#depression #anxiety #doubt #insomnia #self-esteem #mind
Rhianecdote Nov 2014
And I wonder how do I live a life without expectations when all I have are dreams?My hopes my only salvation or so it seems.
Rhianecdote Nov 2014
She wonders if behind her bubbly exterior anyone can truly see her. Her reflection still lingers in the mirror but as she gets nearer it becomes an unrecognisable figure.

Conflicted, constricted as her life is restricted to the kitchen.

Her starsign was on the dotted line of this contract, not to be lived out as Taurus but for us! Them and a community that's idea of unity is spreading rumours about other families between sips of tea.

Sitting head in hands, these boundaries are bound to be the end of me is all she sees.

But this is my life! Why the continual strife? May as well pick up that knife on the side left from breakfast, better act fast and cut me, cut me deep, put me to sleep, Cause I can't walk this path, the one you lay before me.

The red carpet that fades to pink as it's left in the rain. The most I can hope for is the same in terms of my pain, that it erodes as I rust, become a husk of what I was and instead of tread that path, haunt it.
Written for my best friend, cause sometimes it can be hard to reconcile two cultures
Rhianecdote Nov 2014
Jealousy sees me but I feign indifference.

Jealousy sees through me but I was born with green eyes so I can hide the despise, an envy in guise that smiles as it lies deemed the innocent.

Honest is me? No honest you see but honest I'm not, honestly quite the opposite is me. Liar that lies to themselves, sighs and cries to themselves, hoards emotions on shelves, call it Store Rage.

So jealousy cease in me, sign this treaty please cause you only tease,  won't you give me peace? Piece removed with ease, named Redemption...
#jealousy #truth #redemption #lies
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