Maybe my body is rejecting me,
my every little bits and pieces
falling apart because it shouldn't be
allowed to take less than it deserves
Or maybe it's the mind-numbing
overthinking when my brain shouldn't
process every one of my thoughts
and feelings, all so dangerous to think
Sometimes I wish I had no feelings
nothing to think about
but the absence of
one and people would tell me
how miserable it would be
to have to experience them so maybe
I'm breaking down not because I'm taking what I
deserve and maybe it's the lack of
so many things I deserve that I refuse to swallow.