All I wish is a final goodbye kiss
Then I will slip into the dark abyss
That will drown me far from your life
A life where you will be somebody's wife
Somebody who will love you heartily 
Somebody who will keep you forever happy
Somebody who doesn't remind of me
So you never reminisce our chemistry
If somehow in future we meet any day
I hope you stop, have something to say
Rather than ghosting or changing your way
Like a chapter of life, you already scrapped
Even if you say nothing, it will be okay
Keeping distance like December and May
Don't you worry, I won't **** your bliss
All I wish is a final goodbye kiss
Then I will slip into the dark abyss

Who? Who?
Who the hell are you dude?
Looking in the mirror and it got me confused
I am your alter ego, you worthless fool
"Hello?"
What's wrong, why are you here?
You need to listen to this, what I am about to share.
What are you trying to say, I can't understand it.
Why don't you just leave? I am turning to manic
What the hell is going on, I can't comprehend
He said
Why are you waiting? you have to go far
Why don't you just believe me and aim for stars
Dude, you are nothing just thought that pop
The road will be tough, you will get scars
He said that it's ok, you will be fine
Couple cuts and bruises you will be alright
You don't need anyone, I'm here by your side
Who the hell are you? telling me this why
I am the one, who don't want you to be ******
See yourself dude, don’t you feel pity?
No limit in the sky you can't fly
You got soul, you shouldn't quit
******* dude, you are just a lie
No man I am you, dude don't be shy
Walk off that door, have to pick up your fight
Have to do it now, you know time just flies
It's your choice, you need to make a call
Fight for yourself, it's ok even if you fall
You'll probably think I'm stupid, what I am looking for
Felt like hours before I finally reached the door
As I walked out of that door, mind full for fear
Legs were shivering, as I step down the stairs
My heart is ******* beating, thoughts were not clear
My stomach ******* turning, all I'm feeling was fear
Things started moving and the sun was shinning
Don't get yourself stuck here, see life's silver lining
These aren't mere words you won't know how it feels
But I hope you never do because I swear that it kills
Life leaves pains that are impossible to heal
But you have you, you are irreplaceable

Love is nothing
Just a chemical reaction
Start with lust
And some infatuation
A little bit of banters
Lots of affection
Sometimes profound
Sometimes make you insane
It hurts you too
When they are in pain
You seize it hard
Believing it will be an eternity
Then you hurt each other
Giving fatal injuries
It gets worse
As you grow apart
You get mad
Picking each other's fault
You are left sad
Eventually breaking your heart
As reaction fade
You look for a new start

Death knocking on the door,
No need to pour any more,
I've had enough drink of life.
Let the bar shut to close,
There is no remorse,
We had a fun night.

I penetrate, when my pen iterate
As I paint it red, killing thoughts of you
Pages out of space, such a weird case
As this paper trace, every pain it read 
Even though I hate, it's an essence of you

Everybody wants happiness
Everybody has dreams
Not Everybody gets satisfaction
Everybody loves someone
Everybody longs love
Not Everybody finds love
Everybody knows pain
Everybody has struggles
Not Everybody survives

A place far away
A thousand years away from this world
Is where you will find actual me

I am going back in time
Even if it takes years or infinity combined
In my imagination, you are sitting by my side
And you smile as your strands are flying
Oh wait, let me check
When you look at me like that
Don't know what to expect
I probably still adore you, when your eyes reflect
The light from the distant sunset, hands around my neck
Wanted to protect, instead of hurting you every time
But I break when you cry rather than smile
I'm the one to spoil a surprise
It seems like you've had to greet me goodbye
Frightened by the wound though it's not too harsh
What's the point in thinking of the start
When you are at the finish line
Letting you go too soon
So, I am going back in time
Even if it takes years or infinity combined
In my imagination, you are sitting by my side
And you smile as your strands are flying

Even though you are dead to me
Still, you are the last face I wanna see
Pushing on the death pedal, riding to hell
In the hope of meeting there, when you sleep
Because hell is where you deserve to be
I was no good and you are no better
Hell or heaven, does it even matter?
All I want is to be together
Even if I have to suffer

Happiness over everything
Happiness in my mind
Happiness is my will
Happiness is my kind

There will be a part of me, which will keep on hating you
Thinking of all the things we were supposed to do

How can I keep on fighting for you?
When you gave up on me so easily
How can I come back to you?
When us I no more see
How can I say "I Love You"?
When I'm no more in love with me
How can I be true to you?
When I don't know how to be

I'm not afraid of commitment.
I'm afraid of is you having resentment.
I'm not afraid of us fighting.
I'm afraid of us never amending.
I'm not afraid of us changing.
I'm afraid of us not prevailing.
I'm not afraid of living rough.
All I'm afraid of is not being enough.

After the last year of college
Taking all the baggage
Leaving this world of dreams
Have to face a world full of ruthless screams
Don't know whether we will be able to handle that pressure
But one thing is sure, we will miss these days of pleasure
Will never forget the feeling of first bunk
How we used to try to be hunks
How we used to stare girls sitting in the cafet
Sharing everything was our habit
How we used to fight for sitting back
Lectures were used to be our headache
How we used to irritate teachers
Used to sleep during boring lectures
How we used to study last night during exam time
Attending classes were used to be a crime
How we used to look here and there in the examination hall
Used to abuse to give each other  a call
How we used to run whenever the dean was on the round for dress check
Used to blame each other whenever made mistakes
How we used to break the rules
Thrown out of the class was used to be the status of being cool
How we used to chat on Facebook late night
Used to be the parts of online fights
Now when we have only one year with us
Don't want it to pass like a bus
Want to live each and every minute like a ton
Want to make every second of it a memorable one
Because I know that the time never turns back
Memories are the only thing that we will have

Every day I lose a part of the past me
to gain a part of the future me.

It's like I'm shoveling up old hurt
All these medications, they won't work
Sitting in silence, trying to soul search
It seems to be all over, looking for some closure
Don't you wanna give the explanation I deserve?
You moved on like nothing, seems to be doing fine
But I'm stuck in time like I never recovered
How's it even justice? when you hardly suffered
My life is garbage, cursing you to have worse
Ripping up your bandages, in pain you immerse
Yes, I'm being a bad guy, justifying the hell you deserve
Guess, this is my way of moving on, hitting a growth spurt

Somewhere deep inside me,
There is a nice guy 
Who wanna care about people
Or at least give a try 
But, that guy is impossible to find
Sold him to evil
Believing, there is no divine
Buried him inside
This world, a living hell in disguise
Full of selfish minds
Since this world, no place for that type
No, I ain't a nice guy

Maybe I dwell on things too much
Keep on overthinking
These thoughts are such predators
Keep on consuming
Me and my words, I never uttered
Fear of ruining
The things that might actually matter
To me assuming
Everything is ok, it can't be better
Life not dooming
That's why I'm such a procrastinator
Keep on procrastinating

Life is punching me down
Trying to take my crown
Nowadays
Giving me regular Ls
Out of space
Out of bounds
All ways frowned upon
Like Lucifer
I'm a fallen angel
The world is hell
It's true
Failures ain't nothing new
Falling down still aims to rule
I might see what's never seen
Might go where I never been
Keep working till I get the fruit
It's my cake
It ain't a loot
I will rise whenever knocked down
Even if I'm 100 punches down

Panic on my brain
Feeling all insane
How did we end up here?
World is upside down
Town is shutdown
Why nobody no more care?
All I need, Some peace for me
And Everyone out there
How can I see?
Wave of positivity
When I'm alone quarantine
Working from my home
Eating dinner alone
When all of this will end?
Starring at my phone
Sitting bored in home
Today, a weekday or weekend?
All I need, Someone joins me
And get some air
How can I see?
Wave of positivity
When I'm alone quarantine