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Rawad Salhab Jul 2014
Where did I belong
When the night took over
When the rain was falling
And the playground was getting colder
When everybody's home
I become a hell of a loner
Until the sunrise again
Didn't wanna face the night hanging sober
Got older
Living most of my life on the line
Struggling like an injured soldier
With a damaged soul over time 
Gave up my pride for shelter
Sleeping in debt of a crime
The only medicine for living lower
Was getting high !
She told me watch me change a ****
But I couldn't let out the sadness
She didn't know it would take more than love
To **** this madness
In Blackness
That I stayed up with all night to practice 
I was honest when i promised to accomplish this ******* BLACK LIST Na
Too late i'm heartless now
And I feel like wrapped in chains
I don't think I can trust 
After what I lost since the day I fell off  insane
Suffering
Man i can't feel anything
I wake up screaming every time I'm dreaming of what demons are offering .
This is not actually a poem, but its a verse of a song ive been working on for a while now,everything i said in this verse is true and its based on my true life when i was a child
Rawad Salhab Feb 2014
I'm usually pretty silly,
when I show you how I care,
but today is very special,and
be silly,I don't dare

I thought of sending you flowers,
but thought,no,no to you.
I thought of sending candy,
but that was silly too.

I wanted to send a card,
with all the frills along,
or send you all my love
in a silly little song.

I could have sent balloons,
but that is getting old.
I could have sent a heart
made of 14kg. gold.

I could have sent a teddy bear
to snuggle with you at night,
but I'd rather it be with me you snuggle,
when you turn out the lights!

I couldn't think of how to show it,
in any special way,
so I guess there's only one thing left
for me to briefly say.

I love you and I wish you were mine
Rawad Salhab Jan 2014
Void, empty, hollow inside
My dreams have fled, my hopes have died
Existence has no reason
Life's just passing with each season

She was my life, my hope, my love
All is gone, passed by thereof
The hurt is such no one should bear
What's to life, why should I care?

I weep all night for my love gone
My heart is sick, for death I long
Mine eyes well tears for love that's lost
I'll mourn always for the great cost

But in each day Lord give me hope
Strengthen me so I may cope
Grant me wisdom to help me see
Thy great way and not just me.
Rawad Salhab Jan 2014
How should I cry when my own tears scald me?
How can I mourn the death rolled out behind me
when I laid the carpet?
How can I withhold my own life
when I sent my friends out to spend theirs?
And oh my lover!
The libation of our son's birth-blood
paid ahead from out of your veins.
No goodbye, no misunderstood parting!
No forgiveness!
Not from your widow,
Not ever!
No way to lay the burden down
till a girl walked out of my memory to take it from me
Do this for me,
take my message to those that should hear it,
tell them
I am defying gravity
I'm flying high
defying gravity
and no one's
ever
going to
bring
me
down!
Rawad Salhab Jan 2014
I'm truly sorry for my words and actions
I'm sorry for everyone I've ever hurt,I know how it feels to be hurt
I'm sorry for changing
I'm sorry it had to be that way but I won't apologize for who I am
I'm sorry for the trouble that I put you and your heart through
God knows that I'd do anything for a part 2
I'm gonna try to give my mother and father what they expected from me
I'm sorry for not being that son you hoped I'd be
I'm so sorry for not being there for you.. When you needed someone, the most.
Rawad Salhab Jan 2014
When I see you
I tend to smile
Not all day
But for a while
I watch you as you turn around
I remember every single sound
I watch you as you look at me
That’s when I see your beauty
I start to frown when you look away
I guess away is where you’ll stay
I go into a dreamy gaze
In my dream I was in a maze
Having you would be my prize
If I get you is a surprise
Right, left, forward and back
Trying to trace my every track
Boundary here boundary there
Boundaries located everywhere!!!
I touch the side I touch the ground
I try to locate every sound
I hear the birds start to cheep
I only hear one other peep
“Help me, Help me” I hear ahead
“Help me, help me if you can.”
I knew it was her I could only tell
It wasn’t the place nor the smell
It was the sense of my crush in fear
It was a cry only my love can hear
I try my best I sprint ahead
If I was not with you I might as well be dead
I turn the corner and I see
The brightness of her beauty

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