I still remember the first time,
You looked at me like I'm actually worth something for,
The first time,
You held out your hand to shake mine,
The first time,
I shook it back and liked the roughness of your palm,
The first time,
You sat next to me,
The first time,
You dared me to dance,
The first time,
I accepted your dare where we had the last dance together.

It's amazing how something
So beautiful can be
So painful
How something
That is used to express love
Expresses hate
Maybe we should all be
Mute and Deaf
So we don't ever have to
Experience the pain words can bring

he was the kind of boy you'd
break all the rules for,
but you didn't know he'd break you.

She cries at night as she tries to sleep                     c. 6.13.14 J.Ray
A victim of the life she tries to keep
She lives her life inside her own mind
She looks for the things she cannot find
Trapped inside, she just lost her way
She is someone new each and every day
Takes meds today, so tomorrow she’s fine
But the Doctor says that she’s Borderline
Silence the quiet whispers and deny all your pain
The voices in your head have all come back again
The doctors and the nurses say that you’re insane
We can make her better they always seem to claim
But we know better ‘cause they’re the one to blame
Sleeping so well now and the time sure flies
When your mind goes away a part of me dies
Nothing but finest pills the nurses will bring
Effects can **** you but you won’t feel a thing
She’s here today, so tomorrow she’s fine
But the Doctor says she’s just Borderline

He used to look at her,
How her hand is always filled with black inks,
How she always holding some book,
How she shuts the world with her headphone,
How not even once she looked up at him,
How he wished she would stop looking at the ground,

But now he stopped.
He gave up.