How would he want you to act?
A small voice whispered in my ear.
Stop obsessing over the simple fact
Yes, you are all alone with no one to love you near
Yes, you're quite afraid
But he knows the strength within you
Apparently better than you do.
He knows your brain cuts like a razor blade
Show the world the strength he sees.
Admire the way the winter leaves freeze.
Just Breath.

Why does it matter I want to scream.
Why does his opinion matter so much?
Because maybe just maybe this one is on your team.
And he doesn't want you to use your fear as a crutch.
Because he makes you proud.
And there is now a longing to do the same.
To show him, and this bustling crowd,
your deep-seated roaring flame.

So I held my head high
and I went where I had never gone before,
With a mental battle cry.
Because I am his lioness hear me roar.

I have never understood this feeling.
Joy and dread as one.
My stomach is cartwheeling.
Oh god, what have I done?

Have I really let someone in again?
Even though we all know how that goes.
Doesn't his smile just make you love the pain?
Do those dimples make you forget the coming woes?

You silly foolish little thing.
There is only one end to this story.
A ruptured heart and a broken wing.
We have seen this before and let us be honest it is rather gory.

Do you want to face that final page?
Alone and isolated on Trent...
Can you once more muster the healing rage?
Or more likely be left with a new dent.

Is it the accent or the heat of skin you need?
Does it go deeper than that, is it more deadly than that?
Is it his soul that makes you bleed?
Or is he no more than a rat?

Life will never show you the answers before you down pay.
So invest wisely your life and your body.
What does your gut have to say?
Or has she gone quiet no longer so *****.

For ten long years, we have clung to each other
rooted in each other's insecurities
two trees withstanding the storm of time.
But like most things that grow from the youthful soil it is time now to sail upon the wind.
To germinate my mind and grow strong in foreign earth.
My love for you remains but my new found branches must stretch toward brighter light.
Our rings will be much different from now on
But our time together forever marked within us when the love was plentiful.
You are now tall and strong
A giant in a tiny forest.
And all I hope for you is a lush and green canopy to rest under.
Mild winters for your heart
And a swift coming spring.
As for me I chose to be a seed.
I chose to absorb the nutrients of the world
And grow from within before I burst forth somewhere new and fertile.
The strength we've gained from each other is no doubt what keeps me going.
But now it is time to grow away, stretching my face towards the sun drinking in the light of a new day.

Time has blessed this place
It has left it un-ravaged by the relentless persuit of progression
The future is bright and beautiful and blessedly far away here.

The grass sways with the thousands of ghosts who march through the fields
The sun puts on the same play millions have watched for millennia. As they sit on the grassy slopes still quite present.
The tress bend to carcass me the the way they have to countless others across my sacred history.
The very earth sings here in the language of time and blood.
Grounding you pulling you through the history that seems to fertilize this very place. This country shines green with time.

It hit me today quite suddenly
That it would never be you
We cling to each other because we need to survive the night of youth
But with daylight fast approaching
Your figure becomes ghostly
And I once again cling to empty echoing words
Bitter sweet lingering touches
A thousand tortured looks
And of course the nothing's left unsaid

He is standing there on the corner of my dreams
His face obscured by the shadows of my yesterday's
But his being is sturdy
His soul rooted to the earth
A tree where I can rest my weary soul
A place to grow and bear my fruit
He waits patiently there for me
While I make love to my ghost
He knows I will need him when the burning sage smoke clears

With every drink of your clear blue eyes
I pray you are him
That when the light touches his face the sun will illuminate your soul with mine
But alas with every kiss upon my cheek I feel you pass through me tearing holes every time you disappear