I love you
but I'm tired
of constantly chasing you
of always asking
what did I do
I'm tired of the lies and the games
and the constant wondering and pain

some you see
some you dont
not all will heal
not all end in groth
i know youve heard
what dosent **** you makes you stronger
but thats not always true
some time it just makes you realize
no one will ever be there for you

everyone has theirs
to sooth their pain]maybe it started as a game
took them for fun
took them to sleep
took them to cope
Now you're in to deep
you think you need them
you really dont
you took them firsts
they took your hope

i see you
do you see me
i hear you
are you listening
i need you
you dont need me
I know that
you'll leave me
i ask you
do you love me

a lie is almost always
rooted in fear
and leaves us with issues
in all we hold dear
relationships,friendships
it affects everyone were near
and always a lie leaves us with issues we are
expected to fix ourselves

You see my brown skin
And assume I'm a ****.

You see my hijab
And assume I'm a terrorist.

You see the smile on my face
And assume I'm happy.

You hear my words
And assume I'm okay.

But I am not.

Instead I am broken.
Yet I am also strong.

I am dark and rule-following.
I am peaceful and Muslim.

You assume based on
Society's POV.

If you smile
You must be happy.

Fox, CNN, any media
Tells you I am a terrorist.
So the names I get called
And the extra security checks
Are extremely upsetting.

The murders of black folk
Is either considered appropriate
Or it's "black on black crime"
So it's not taken seriously.

Who are you gonna believe
Me or those who don't know me?

I flicker and struggle to stay on
for I know what happens on this lonely corner
when I'm gone
if I leave them in the dark, nothing good
in my neighborhood, where sirens ring
and sneakers hang
then I go dark - at least I went out with a
BANG!