Expose your soul to me,
every inch of sincerity,
every kiss of clarity,
without an apology.

intoxicated
it's easy to forget you

sober
you're all i think about

clear choice isn't it?

i don't know what i'm feeling

nothing makes sense
it all contradicts

one day you miss me
one day you forget me
one day i can't stand you
one day i just crave you

you can't even make up your mind
how am i supposed to make up mine

i hate you
i adore you
i want none of you
i want more of you

why the **** do i still love you
why the **** can't i let go of you

s.s

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i am in a haze today. it is cloudy and beautiful outside. it is also pressing down on my chest and i struggle for air. i wore your shirt to bed last night and it helped steady my oxygen supply. i wish you were here to say my name and speak to me in my native tongue to remind who i am and where i've come from. i'm forgetting everything, slowly. recreating yourself is only good when you haven't done it five thousand times over. i just want to be me now. but how do i become me if there is no you? pick me up from the library and walk me to class. hold my hand and tell me that you will stay with me no matter how grey the sky is or how cold my fingers feel.