rip me to threads
but relatively speaking
you'll never destroy me
because I('m) matter


Punny.

I keep saying someday,
but what I really mean is never.

I'll never do that thing,
or go that place.

It's not a lack of aspiration
It's just knowing who I am
and who I'll always be.

Average,
and this may surprise some
but it's okay to be average.

If everyone was special,
technically no one would really be special.

what more could you ******* want
have i not given all i have?

what happens when i have nothing left to give
and all that remains is a shell of a girl
with sad eyes and a hollow heart

then what?
will you leave?
taking everything i've ever given and throwing me
away
leaving nothing but scraps
and a stray dog to chew on my deteriorating shattered pieces

i hope you're happy
i'll be here
alone
but i hope you're happy

someday i'll come first to someone
I might just have to be that someone

every few days
my mother sends me a photo of my self
usually spanning around five years ago
when i was skinner
when i was prettier
when i was living a life she approved
she calls it
motivation.





So I'm going to see a physician about healthy habits and weight loss soon.
She's a good mom.

then you were gone
and for the first time in forever,
i felt
okay.