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Laken Cooper Nov 2015
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"I have wanted to be alone.
I thought I could make myself forget you in
silence and in song...

And yet I remembered. For who could forget the memory of the once lovely, the once beautiful, the once happy world such as ours?
I came because the song that I kept
through the years is waiting to be sung.
I can not sing it without you.
The song when sung alone, will lose the essence of its tune,
because you and I had been one."
Saw this from the book and the feels hit me.
Laken Cooper Sep 2015
My heart aches knowing the fact that you can never be mine.
Laken Cooper Jan 2016
A beautiful creature which God has made.
Also, a great feeling that you gave.
Point of Retreat : )
Laken Cooper Feb 2017
afraid to let you know
the feelings that I couldn't show
scared to know what will follow
"nevermind", I said it's not too deep but shallow

not wanting our friendship to be over
I hope it fades away please faster
going with the flow is the answer
not letting him notice is better

so I decided to hide
these feelings I kept inside
they say "confess", I abide
thoughts inside my head I can't decide
Laken Cooper May 2015
Feeling blue,
remembering you,
hearing the words that aren't true,
believing the love said by who

The feeling gave me butterflies,
and again remembering those lies,
Is this what I get as a prize?
Wounds will heal as time flies

You are my life's injury,
you were a Beast makes me believe to be beauty,
and now remembering our story,
makes me feel *gloomy
Laken Cooper Dec 2015
I am really tired,
but I need to keep going
just for you and me.
Laken Cooper Jul 2018
we were strangers to each other
destined to meet somewhere
“hello”, I said when I saw you in the corner
“hello”, you gave me as an answer

we became close
you became the person that I want the most
asked Him if you were the one while staring at the cross
hey, we were there, almost

you told me you were sad and blue
I knew it, couldn’t argue
but now that everything’s new
I couldn’t even say “hello” to you
Laken Cooper Dec 2015
I chose to hide
the deep feelings
inside me
because
no one cares anyway
it's either they will
judge or ignore
Laken Cooper Nov 2015
I know it's over but why am I still hoping?
Laken Cooper Dec 2015
The soft strands of your hair
How it sways along with air
You have no idea that I still care
Knowing that you don't is so unfair

How it feels to admire someone who doesn't feel the same?
Some says it's lame,
But I disagree because in my life you came
I guess feeling it might turn me into a dame

How to love when it doesn't feel right?
There are things that I want to write
Feeling hopeless as they turned off the light
Darkness all over because you are out of my sight
Laken Cooper Jun 2015
Tried being the good girl,
I got nothing.
Listens to whatever you say,
I got nothing.
Did what I think was best for us,
I got nothing.
Pretending to be happy even if I'm not,
I got nothing.
And now loving you even if you don't feel the same,
*I got nothing.
Laken Cooper Aug 2015
I know* it when you're mad,
I'll just look at you and try to understand everything because you're mood is already ******-up.
I know what you like and dislike,
I would just let you pick what you like and never argue on non sense things.
I know it when you're happy,
I can see it through your eyes, my favorite part, the way you look at me happily and how effortless you make me smile too.
I know how much you love me,
those 'I love you', when you're kissing me goodbye, late night  talks and surprises makes my heart flutter everytime.
I know it when you're sad,
by just replying me late and whenever I'm asking what took you so long, you will tell me that you had a walk. I know what it means, when you're walking alone you are not feeling well and something's bothering you.
But the thing that *I don't know
, that I wished I didn't know..
You're going to leave me in the end.
I wished not to know that part,
I wished you did not let me know.
Laken Cooper Apr 2015
Your shadow which reminds me of everything
you, walking closer to me
little by little all of those physical appearance
Makes a clear view which makes me remember everything

I saw you again
the thing that I don't want to happen
tried my best to forget you, the memories
but what have you done?

With just a smile, and glance at me
makes my heart skip a beat
I thought everything is fine and alright
not until you step back in my life
Laken Cooper Mar 2016
I want to write.
I want to write the things that my mind can't speak
the words that I can't directly say
the feelings that I can't express

I want to sleep.
I want to sleep for the rest of my life
and wake up beside you
with a smile on my face
sleeping sometimes helps

I want to cry.
I want to cry and let my feelings out
instead of me being silent
but deep inside crashing

I want to confess.
I want to confess everything to someone
Confess that I love them and I'm thankful that they've been a part of my life
but things just holds me back to let go
because I'm such a potato
I want to confess how much I like you
that you've been my crush
but pride is eating me
I don't want to look desperate

I want to be alone.
I want to hear the sound of silence.
I want the touch of the air against my skin.
All alone in a room where my mind is wandering
Alone not lonely,
but alone contemplating.

I want to unlove you.**
But how?
Laken Cooper Jun 2015
I was scrolling,

Because my heart keeps on searching
for my everything
Right now it's nothing
but it will turn into something,
if you keep on waiting.


And so I turned my phone off thinking,
why do I keep on writing
about the things that I'm dreaming
or what I'm feeling.
Laken Cooper Feb 2016
You blew the candle
and darkness starts to fill me
leaving me hopeless
Laken Cooper May 2015
Little things* which means nothing to you,
don't you know that it means a lot to me?
Just a simple "Hi." from you,
a simple text message, even if I know that you sent it to others too,
Your gestures, even if it's just a simple one,
don't you know how it makes me smile?
How it makes my heart skip a beat.
Little things that you've done has its big effect on me,
too bad, I'm the only one who likes  the feeling,
the only one who appreciate those little things,
because it's normal to you,
it's your everyday gestures from different girls,
it's your way to make them fall for you
Little things to me means *nothing to you
Laken Cooper Sep 2016
Maybe* it's not you
Maybe there's someone who's worth my time
Maybe we're too busy
Maybe I'm too busy looking at you yet you're busy looking and thinking about her
Maybe I was blinded by the qualities
Maybe I don't like you
Maybe I like you because you're the only one I see
Maybe I focused on you
Maybe I was wrong
Maybe I paid a lot of attention
Maybe if I told you what I feel
Maybe there's something between us
Or maybe there's nothing between us
Maybe I shouldn't be thinking like this
Maybe I'm just stressed about other things
Maybe I thought thinking about the possibilities would make it better
Maybe I only love the idea of you and me
Since it's over. I'm done.
Laken Cooper Apr 2015
Love* is seeing imperfect things perfectly
Their flaws, which catches you,
Their smile, which means nothing to others but means a lot to you,
"Love is blind.", Indeed it is,
Turn-off's and on's isn't a big thing when you're in love,
Just the fact seeing them makes you happy,
makes you smile instantly
foul smells, unpleasant things or anything doesn't matter if you
really love them
I doubt people who says that they already have their true love
Where's the love there?
Love, because he/she looks good? 
Because he/she is rich?
Loving someone despite their flaws and issues is what we called true love
Added by trust, respect and faith are the perfect ingredients to achieve true love,
Just by accepting them in any imperfections that they have will mean a lot.
Bored. Yay.
Laken Cooper May 2015
End
It is wrote when you want to *end
something,
to end a sentence,
to end a paragraph,
or to end a story.
End of everything.
But period is written to start something new,
start of a new sentence,
start of a new paragraph,
or start
of a new story.
When someone put a period in your life,
always think of the positive side of it.
Period is written for you to face the new chapter of your life,
to start a new beginning,
End is connected for a *new start
Behind the period. And honestly I'm suffering from period pain right now.
Laken Cooper Apr 2015
Tears falling down on my eyes
Looks like a melting ice
As little as mice
Or maybe lice

I heard the crushing sound
That it makes when I see you around
Your kind of man where do I found?
I'm trapped in a circle that is round

They say loving you is the best thing to happen
but some things make me awaken
Lead me being broken
You played with me like a *kitten
Laken Cooper Mar 2016
We are the poisoned youth.
Poisoned words, for making someone feel better
Poisoned eyes, for seeing lies but doing nothing
Poisoned ears and mouth, for staying quiet even if we heard something that can make change
Poisoned hands, for doing everything just to be the best even if it's wrong
Poisoned hearts, as we try to love the wrong person and it gives us pain
and poisoned minds, when we believe in lies
Again, we are the *poisoned youth.
Read poisoned youth somewhere and came up with this.
Laken Cooper Nov 2015
silence at night
where my heart keeps wondering
thinking about the possibilities
wanting to let everything out
but as I tried
making the sound
that can only be heard by me
and as I opened my mouth
the only sound that I heard
was myself screaming inside
and it made me wonder
why can't I let it out
the thoughts that keeps on running through my mind
random
Laken Cooper Apr 2015
I'm like your shadow,
who's with you anytime and anywhere
But only shown when there is light
Do you really need me to add up in your life?
because when brightness comes my shadow is connected to it
How about in darkness?
You're going to leave me behind?
Laken Cooper Apr 2015
Sometimes what a lonely person need is silence
Where you can think about things freely,
without anyone asking further questions
without anyone judging you
Just yourself fighting with thoughts that's running through your mind.
Silence is the best way to analyze things,
best way to contemplate
Alone no one will ever know
Where you can embrace yourself in
*Silence..
Laken Cooper May 2015
You're the only thing I hear,
The only thing that I want to be with,
You're my heart's Last Song Syndrome,
Every line I'm remembering,
Every you I'm thinking,
My heart is singing your name out,
What a beautiful melody,
What a beautiful symphony,
But just like a typical song,
Get lost to trend
But still a memory of you,
Remains.
Laken Cooper Sep 2015
"This is not normal."
That's what I said when I felt the sudden jolt in my heart.
You're making my heart beat abnormally.

"This is not normal."
What my mind speaks whenever I'm smiling for no reason.
I know. I look stupid that time.

"This is not normal."
I muttered when I caught myself staring at you.
My eyes saw what perfection means.

"This is not normal."
When I wanted to have you even in my dreams.
I wanted to be with you all the time.
I couldn't last a day without your presence.

"This is not normal."
When all this time I'm hiding something from you.
I'm afraid. I'm scared that you're going to leave me after that.
I don't want to lose you.

"This is not normal."
You're the only person I'm not afraid to tell everything.
Not afraid to tell everything except for one.

"This is not normal."
This is no longer me.
I'm so in love that it changed everything.

"This is not normal."*
I had to stop.
Because I know what we have now.
Is all temporary.
ZzzzzzZ bored sorry
Laken Cooper Mar 2016
This happened to me twice,
Never thought that the phrase "never repeat the same mistake"
would hit me
Hit me so hard that made me think
Why do I keep on doing this?
Even if I know where this would lead
Am I stupid or what?
I thought I loved you
but the mistake is I still am
Still in love with you
Because the group TWICE is so adorable. And it got me squared.
Laken Cooper Nov 2015
Days and months of not talking to you
At first I don't think I could make it
Because I'm used to talking to you everyday,
Waking up in the morning and the first thing to check was your message
Before falling asleep the last thing to do was to text you goodnight.
After months of not doing that I thought I'd be fine.
I thought I'd be used to not talking to you.
But then after months,
You beeped me.
And while reading the message
I realized that the months of not talking to you are all useless
All of the feelings that I tried to get rid of
suddenly appears again
Why do you need to do that?
Laken Cooper Apr 2015
You are lucky,* because you have your parents with you,
some kid out there are longing for their parent's hug, kiss, comfort
which unfortunately they can't have

You are lucky, because you are surrounded by good friends around you,
Have you ever experienced having no one beside you?
having fake people around you,
who claims themselves as the true one but their only purpose is to put you down?

You are lucky, because you can move and see things freely,
How about the people who are uncapable of doing that?
blind* people who can't see the beauty that God has given us,
deaf people who can't express their feelings and so on

You are lucky, because you are given a chance to learn everything,
Poverty hits us, the main thing that is affected is education
Many people wants to learn and you are lucky that you've been given a chance to be one of them

Do you ever think how lucky you are?
But why are we not contented?
Instead of being thankful,
Why do people always crave for something more?

*"Craving is suffering."
We all are lucky, we must appreciate it.

— The End —