A year ago today my faith was tested
I gazed upon the face of my sister and yet
cancer distorted the woman I knew
I go home to shower and my Nephew comes in
"She's gone, we all left the room and she left".
Mourning shoes are put on
The usual chaos, drama, screaming
yelling and people pissing on space
once shared by us all ...wanting to covet her
to our breasts
Closing up my emotional shop
I move forward this whole year with
a knowing that she for once is flying
high with all our friends and family...
Today I couldn't function well
the tears with memories of her letting go
and me forced to let go overwhelmed me
I've never felt so alone sister. I never
thought I'd have to live without you
here I am...alone, in body, mind and spirit
I feel forgotten, you knew me, and still loved me
I feel betrayed, and yet know better
I hate to feel because the hole in my heart
that's been empty since you left me aches
I'm trying sister...I'm trying~
This is not poetry,
and this is not heartstrings
playing sad lullabies
in the deep spaces of your mind.
This is not poetic;
this is not reading
stanza after stanza
wanting to know what's at the end.
This is not rhythmic,
nor sensual or smooth,
nor is it flowing like words should from the tongues of those that know which words to use.
This is simple.
These are words that make sense
without peaking around corners
or hiding behind luscious similes
or over used metaphors
and out of touch symbolism.
If this is not poetry,
I refuse to dub myself
and will continue on,
but write prose instead.
Within my soul I’ve found yours
Are they different?
They are one, they are one with the cosmos,
But our sub souls have a strong gravity acting on them,
A gravity unexplained by science,
A gravity we’ve chosen to name love,
Scientifically oxytocin creates this feeling, but oxytocin is a by product of this very gravity,
What we choose to believe is up to us
The sky is blue
Love is the fifth dimension
A day will come, far far away,
A collective surge of this gravity,
Will pull all creatures together,
There will be no anti love - no hunger no wars,
This dimension we only experienced in parts,
Will save us from our own destruction