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Jacob Kraft May 2017
I still get nervous singing in front of a crowd
And I'm nervous that nothing I do will make people proud
I worry that my life's heading in the wrong direction
And that I won't find someone who'll exchange affection
I fear that I have friends who don't want me around
They just tolerate me, wouldn't care if I were sound
Asleep, far away nowhere to be found
Or buried ten feet beneath the cold hard ground
They'll find my body long after I have drowned
Under the stresses and the worries that I tell you now
I keep this all inside
Hide it in my mind
When people ask if I'm okay I tell them that I'm fine
I've never let these words see the light of day
Cause how do I say
These things to people with whom I play and pray
So here these worries and thoughts will stay...

Until today...

I'm afraid one day I'll wake up depressed
Haven't achieved my goals, always tired and stressed
Didn't do my best when put to the test
Allowed myself to slip below success
Made mistakes along the way and now I'm less
Than I set out to be, my life's an utter mess
I'm scared one day I won't make people smile
And on the day my life goes on trial
I'll look back on all my days with regret
Because I'm just some guy that everyone will forget
My story's been written, my time's been spent
And I didn't change the world everywhere that I went
And I didn't give, not even a cent
Because my fragile mind was twisted and bent
From my original plan, the man god had sent
Out to be a saint, a prophet, a gent
Who on his own could make a dent
On the darkness of the world, that's what was meant
But I didn't become that guy
Instead now I cry
On my deathbed where I lie
Alone because I didn't try
I didn't reach for the sky
When I had the chance to fly
I fell down from life's high
And now it's my time to die

Now I'm all alone
At this all time low
Ten feet below
Accompanied only by the flowers that grow
Above me
Jacob Kraft Mar 2016
Months have passed
Since you came to me in pain
We've moved on from that
And a new friendship was gained

We're back to the top
Nothing can bring us down
Our bond is stronger than ever
I always want you around

We've regained our love
We're happier than ever
Together once again
Let's make it forever

Thank you for being you
You're beyond perfect in my eyes
I'm sorry for hurting you before
But I've been forgiven, haven't I?

You're a blessing in my life
There's no doubt for sure
You're the girl of my dreams
Through every obstacle we'll endure

I'll love you forever
Just give me your trust
Stay by you for eternity
To me that's a must
R.A.H.  I love you
Jacob Kraft Mar 2016
We were best of friends
Nothing could separate us
We were on top of the world
Then she came along...

Gradually we grew further and further apart
We talked less, saw each other less
And I thought I was doing fine
I didn't know I was hurting you

Then you came to me in pain
I didn't know what to say
You know I never meant
To hurt you in any way

I lost your trust
Our relationship cracked
When I heard what you had to say
My happiness lacked

Now I'm on a mission
To regain your trust
To redeem my name in your eyes
That is a must

Slowly but surely
We're becoming closer again
I'll do whatever it takes
To once again be best friends
R.A.H.
Jacob Kraft Mar 2016
Smiling at you
Because we're the only ones who know
Jacob Kraft Mar 2016
Woken up at 1:00am
Dad's screaming
Swearing
Punching
Grabs me and shakes me
Why is he doing this?
What did I do wrong?
Confused more than I've ever been
Mom comes in
Grabs dad
Tells him to stop
Dad gets angrier
Throws things
Hole in the wall
Mom's crying
Tears drop to the floor
Tells dad he's a monster
A lunatic
She runs out of the room
Dad tears blankets away
Tells me I need to grow up
And I still don't even know what I've done
Now there's a hole in me
And it's irreparable
It's too big to fix
Fear, sadness, regret,
All eating away at me
And I wonder to myself
Is it even worth it to be alive?
Could I just end it all this very moment?
Would my parents even care?
All I want to do is make them happy, proud
Yet I've torn them apart
Made them hate me
All I'm thinking now is
"Lord forgive me, help me redeem myself for what I've done"
But I'm scared
Scared because I don't think I'll ever be able to fix this
This hole might just be too big and too deep
This blemish will stick with me forever
Jacob Kraft Feb 2016
Legs intertwined
At the end of the night
Arms holding on tight
This feels so right
You say you're cold
So tighter I hold
I'll keep you safe and warm
Even through the darkest storm

I kiss your cheek
It makes you weak
You kiss my hand
Every moment so grand
No space between us
But I'm not making a fuss
I could fall asleep with you
Nothing would be better, it's true

Neither of us wants to go
Because we both know
That at moments like these
We want time to freeze
Moments like these
Are pleasing to you and me
And you're bringing the heat
Because **** you are hot
Stop staring?  I cannot
You're truly a sight to see
That's merely what I believe
I could admire you for hours
You're more beautiful than a flower
That blooms in the spring
You make me want to sing
And you radiate like the sun
And you're so much fun
And you've improved my like
And you're sharper than a knife
Will you be my wife
Through toils and strife?
Because I love you so
And that love will only grow
And that makes two
Because I know you love me too

I'm such a fortunate guy
That at the end of the night
I'm lying here with you
Because there are very few
Who get to experience this,
Who comprehend this bliss
But I'm one of those lucky few
And for that reason I thank you
R.A.H.
Jacob Kraft Feb 2016
Wow what an evening
We danced without a care
But it wouldn't have been the same
Without your presence there

There you were
In a beautiful dress
No I couldn't stop staring...
Out of everyone there
You surely looked the best

I wanted to be
By you all night
Because in reality I still love you
Please never leave my sight

When that slow song came on
I literally sprinted to you
That song was our first slow dance
That'll always be our song too

Holding you in my arms
Why couldn't that moment last forever
Nothing will ever top those couple minutes
Never Never Never

I would do anything
To repeat that night again
To dance with you for hours
It was like a scene from heaven
R.A.H.  I never stopped loving you
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