I can hear the wind outside gusting- I can see the swaying branches on the barren trees outside, And a foreboding clouded sky where wild geese are calling- The skies shall darken further with the setting of the sun and Winter will have begun once again. I fear this time of year when the world falls into a deepening slumber- It is the time of year when cold air can become bitter It is the time of year when my mother passed away- Twenty two years ago.
I fear the sounds of winter- The wind fiercely whistling as it blows- I fear winter storms where the snowfalls are heavy, I am locked inside of my home Fearful of the cold air outside enveloping me- I fear the darkening of the shorter days I have locked myself inside a world of my own But trying to grasp onto my sanity as I struggle to abandon past memories-
My mother’s ashes were scattered at sea Near a sunny California beach- Although she passed away at the dawn of a bleak winter’s day I fear that her spirit was lost when she died = And had awakened in some strangely foreign place- I fear the loss of my own soul and spirit as Winter has always been such a desolate time of year A time where all hope seemingly slips away.
I recall the day I was taken away, And I found myself in a bleak and unfamiliar place I had lost more than peace of mind-I had lost my grasp on reality and I still hear my mother crying as she exited the door to this dungeon, leaving me behind. I now feel my own tears streaming down my cheeks- My mother’s death had been tragic-we had lost ourselves in different ways We both left this world when trees are barren, and when the days are shortened. As snow is beginning to fall I close my eyes and dream- That my spirit shall awaken by my mother’s side someday after I myself die- Where we shall both find ourselves alive in a better place Where clear skies shall awaken us with a new rebirth- In a place where the sun never sets and we can be happy always to be alive- Even if we are only alive in spirit-we shall laugh, be carefree and content It has been said that our spirits will always find joy and freedom from fear- And our spirits shall live on eternally…