I'm not sure how old he is, my step-step-granddad, but that's the advice he gives that fixes itself on my psyche. Focus. The act is the goal. It's the thought of having been and becoming whole. Focus. Each event is like a pebble in a landslide. I take it in stride. Focus. I am everywhere and there is no center, no home base, no dock on this river. I'm caught in current. Stay calm. This is perfect. Each twist in the flow, every rock of the boat, every splash in the face, my being gives chase to possibilities in consistent inconsistencies, sacred, eternal, geometries. Do our bodies disperse like the leaves that traverse from limb to ground, spiraling down? Focus. Where are your shoes? We're running late, and there's no time for another drink. We're out of milk? Look at my sink. It's piled high and I can't think with you making all that ******* noise. What time is it? I forgot to call... that bill is due tacked on the wall. I wonder if we'll talk again. There's spam where your email should have been. All this time I thought that we were friends. I can't sleep. I'm up too late and I can't sate this need to see what I can make of missed phone calls and mystery texts. That write up? No, I haven't seen that yet. But don't forget, I told you, "I can handle it." Remember? Double. Oh. Seven. Wait. Focus. Breathe in. I'm calm. That's resurrection. Breathe out. I'm smiling. That's reconnection.