The truth is
I don't know
what I want
& I probably
never will
because I'm
far too
indecisive
on everything
that could or
will be
important to
me in the
long run

It absolutely
terrifies me
to think about
who I might
end up with
& I know that
it shouldn't
because I
should be
happy with
whatever I
decide is
best for me

He was best
for me, but
everything
changed for
the worst in
a matter of
weak moments
when he didn't
think about
his actions &
****** up
because he
didn't get what
he wanted

He got what
he needed &
he realized too
late as I walked
far away,
leaving him
in the dust
as I left behind
a trail of tears
that he tried
to follow,
but couldn't
because I was
too far gone

Too far gone
in more interesting
thoughts as I
tried to ignore
every thought of
you that tried
to enter my mind
because I wasted
way too much
time with you
in my head as
it was when we
were happy,
that I didn't want
to possibly waste
even more time
on someone
that didn't
appreciate mine