But that's not his name. He really doesn't have a name. For starters no name could even hint at what he means to me. No name could get anywhere near his sheer visceral naked beauty. No name could delineate the slim ripple of his muscles. His beautiful stiff ****--oh so suckable and lickable. No name could hint at the smell of the dried **** on his *****. No name could begin to describe the taste of his warm fresh ***. No name would fit the feel of the shaft of his perfect stiff **** in my fingers. No name could describe the shade of lavender of his exposed **** head. The way his **** head fits in my mouth. The feeling on my tongue as I slide it along the full length of the shaft of his stiff ****. I call him Ben. Weve travelled the world together for nigh on 29 years now. Ive ****** his **** in ,my imagination on most continents,as ive laid in the same room tossing myself off imagining being ****** by him every night and during every day.. Ive licked his *** filled ***** in Bangkok and Delhi and London and Amsterdam and Barcelona and Deia and Kathmandu and Bodh Gaya and York and Paris and Dharamsala and Amravati and oh so many other places. Ive swallowed litres of his warm fresh ***. Ive rained typhoons of kisses on his upturned face. Ive tossed him off to ******* too many times to count. Ive loved him endlessly. I call him Ben . His diamond sharp intellect. His smirky smile that lights up his face. His oh so tasty tongue flickering in and out of my mouth. Licking my lips--wrestling my tongue to a standstill. The taste of his saliva --like the sharpest sweetest nectar. His arms that wrap themselves around my nakedness. His hands that never fail to connect to my ***** no matter how dark the room. His fingers that tease and ****** my throbbing testicles. My lovely boyman--my lovely lover. I call him Ben. His fingers wrapped around the shaft of my stiff **** like ivy on an ancient wall. they seem to grasp my ***** member so deeply its as if they live below my skin. I call him Ben. When I kneel in submission to him and lick his *** filled ***** I am elevated into the land of adjectives and superlatives. When I cringe servilely at his feet licking the full length of the shaft of his oh so stiff and perfectly shaped ***** I become just a tongue tasting his dried ****. I call him Ben. Oh I so love and adore the taste of his dried **** coating the lavender helmet of his bell end. When I slide the whole of the head of his hard ***** between my lips filling my mouth completely I am turned into a human shaped jelly quivering with the anticipation of swallowing the cream of his pre *** flowing out of that divine slit. I call him Ben When his naked hips ****** his stiff **** down my throat I feel divinely graced with unconditional love and I realise he owns me. I am his ****. I am his Slave. I await the whip. I long for the sharp sting of the lash. I need the tender chastisement that only Ben can give me. I call him Ben and he is my Master. He tells me stand with my hands on my head and I immediately comply with his order for I am his Slave. His very own *******. There to give him the pleasure he gets from whipping me. There to offer all parts of my nakedness to the whip in his hand. Why is Sado-Masochistic love with Ben so lovely? Why is the pain of his whipping so soft and gentle and tender and stinging? Why do I stand with stiff **** jutting out and ***** dangling begging him--beseeching him to take advantage and whip it as he does? Each stroke of his whip making my **** **** and bounce and sway turning it red and so mildly painfull?. I call him Ben and I love him. Ive loved him for 29 years. But alas he does not love me unconditionally.. When we are together he humiliates me and I love him more--for his weakness in being the Slave of the Mind and Conditioned Identity. I love feeling inadequate when I am near to him. I want him to humiliate me. To be humiliated is to be humble. I do not care what people say. I love him. I call him Ben. But oh how I wish wish wish that he were like me. Mindless and Conditioned Identityless. He could be such a nice guy if he weren't such an *******.