Claustrophobia, bouts of depression An extreme sensation of longing A sudden realization to the loneliness A harsh fervor for the idea of loneliness Bitter repulsion at the self for the loneliness But when you get over loneliness,
then it's just guilt. and then nothing. It's worse when you forgot what you did Or you choose to deny it. Lying to the self.
That's when I drown. I need you to be my gills, so I won't drown. I need you to be the truth, so I can't deny it, so I can **** this guilt. I need you to be loneliness, so I can crush you. I need you to be longing, just for me, for a balance. I need you to be depression, so I can be free Of claustrophobia.