When did my life become all about other people?
Instead of focusing on myself,
I focus on others and what's going on in their lives.

There is a fine line between caring about others,
And mothering others.
I think I've crossed the line.

Even when I go to counseling,
All we talk about is how I can't change people.
I can't be responsible for people.
I can't always help everyone.

All we talk about is others problems and why they might act a certain way towards me.
Not really how I can block them out or anything.

I'm tired of being angry and sad and scared everyday of my life
And everyone just acts like it's nothing.
Like I need to put aside what I need for me
And put them first because my problems aren't nearly as important.

It's scary because I want to focus on myself,
But I feel this responsibility over others
Like if I don't watch them, no one else will,
And sometimes I don't really think they can watch themselves.

I am caught.
Trapped.
With no way out.

I could work on myself and forget the others,
But some of them might do something drastic.

I could work on others and forget myself,
But then what will I become?

Lost.