Isn't it funny how you can be okay, eating your slightly ****** but still good dinner and watching the fosters, and then suddenly just not okay. My mom left again. A few days ago. But it hits me tonight. Growing up dad leaves and mom leaves and sometimes I left myself. And then friends go and boyfriends go and your almost 19 wondering why no one in the world is hearing you.
Im screaming STAY I'm screaming I need a friend A hug A hope. And is it a wonder then that I never believe when people tell me they won't go. That I shove them away. That my voice says don't stay while my heart knows that the opposites all I've ever wanted