Aug 2014
If only you knew how much nights i spend awake
If only you knew how how much i gaze at your face
I cropped the only photo I have left of you
And i stare at it for hours
And i enlarge it just to feel your presence
It makes me feel as if you're right here, with me.
And oh that smile
Oh how it drives me wild.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just not over you.
If only you know there are days when i need you
Days when I'm not okay
Days when i need you to make my day
And you're just not there
My heart screams and calls and rants and raves but you don't hear
In fact you don't even care.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just not over you.
If only you knew that i reread the poems i wrote for you
From the days when my mind had wrapped its fingers around you
And would not even let go
And it really hurts to know you're not the same
It hurts to know those days are gone.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just not over you.
If only you knew that I've been having sleepless nights
If only you knew that every night there's a fight between my eyes and I
If only you knew that the times i go to sleep
Are getting less
Last week it was minutes past five
This week the hours have decreased a lot,
The latest was 1:55.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just not over you.
If you only knew how much I've written about you
You're special don't you think ?
During our days of bliss
I wrote 12 poems,
Some you didn't hear
And after, which is now
I've written the same or maybe more.
If you only knew that i not only write about you with pens and pencils
Or in word documents
But I've written about you with blades on my wrists
Even my eyes have stories to tell
And if you look closely you'll be able to decipher them.
My heart also has one to tell and if you listen carefully you will hear.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just about getting over you.
If only you knew how how much i gaze at your face
I cropped the only photo I have left of you
And i stare at it for hours
And i enlarge it just to feel your presence
It makes me feel as if you're right here, with me.
And oh that smile
Oh how it drives me wild.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just not over you.
If only you know there are days when i need you
Days when I'm not okay
Days when i need you to make my day
And you're just not there
My heart screams and calls and rants and raves but you don't hear
In fact you don't even care.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just not over you.
If only you knew that i reread the poems i wrote for you
From the days when my mind had wrapped its fingers around you
And would not even let go
And it really hurts to know you're not the same
It hurts to know those days are gone.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just not over you.
If only you knew that I've been having sleepless nights
If only you knew that every night there's a fight between my eyes and I
If only you knew that the times i go to sleep
Are getting less
Last week it was minutes past five
This week the hours have decreased a lot,
The latest was 1:55.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just not over you.
If you only knew how much I've written about you
You're special don't you think ?
During our days of bliss
I wrote 12 poems,
Some you didn't hear
And after, which is now
I've written the same or maybe more.
If you only knew that i not only write about you with pens and pencils
Or in word documents
But I've written about you with blades on my wrists
Even my eyes have stories to tell
And if you look closely you'll be able to decipher them.
My heart also has one to tell and if you listen carefully you will hear.
It's been two weeks since you slammed the door to my life
It's been two weeks since you've left
It's been two weeks and I'm just about getting over you.
