most days i sleep my mornings away sleep the deep feeling of my pain away running away from my depression into the comfort of nothingness no sweet dreams no beautiful nightmares just a wide oblivion but today.. this morning I woke to a wonderful sunrise and pain so strong everything I've kept suppressed I felt every ounce of pain shooting throughout my body through every nerve I felt like i was drowning imagine three hundred pounds of held back emotions.. no longer just pain Throw me into the ocean sinking suffocating swarming me i can't breathe anymore think fast.. to my right, bed side handy 800mg "doctor says take one as needed every four to six hours" but doc what if i need two just to enter the race three just to start four just to take off five simply to breathe six, seven, eight just to feel nine and ten to get where i want to be sorry doc six of them I took then i took some more, pills I popped.. i'm on the floor two by ******* two i took them all now I'm where i want to be i feel nothing at all